My Refuge. My Memories. My Dreams.

The best cny guest!

2012-01-26T20:54:00.000-08:00

Woke up late today. Rang up my buddy to visit her. Reverse my car, ek ek, weird, continue driving...slanting de..weird, parked at road side. alamak! one tyre punctured!

A girl's instant reaction: call for rescue. Since still near home, called koko. He directed me to drove home, slowly. The snail journey started, and safely reached home.

Open bonnet to change tyre. What a morning! The spare tyre burst. Don't ask me why. I'm not the owner. Called sis and she said she just checked last month.

First time encounter a tyre puncture experience. But the highlight of this entry is ========>

(googled for this, not him, but they're alike) haha.

Milo dropped by for a surprise chinese new year visiting!! Ah, the instant leap of joy is beyond words. I fed him some cookies and layer cake. His body can take it right. cuz we don keep leftover food. He finished the cold rice greedily too.

You made my day, handsome!! (^_^)

Reactions.

2012-01-26T09:14:00.000-08:00

12:52am.

Purposely rose up from bed to pour out my feelings.

This Chinese New Year, I've met up with many friends. Most of them knew I was posted to Kapit. Below are a few reactions:

1. Wah, Ulu Kapit is so far! How many years will you be there?

2. Where is Kapit?

3. Don't worry. God has a plan for you. You'll meet your Mr. Right there.

4. Take it as a good experience.

5. Quickly get married then you'll be transferred back.

6. "Anyone else going with you?"
     "Yes, 4"
     "That's better."

only one friend mentioned:

Don't go. Compensation of RM 123k? That's alot! But you've to travel by boat, it's so dangerous.. There'll be crocodiles along the river etc..

And this friend actually phoned another friend to persuade me not to report duty and break the contract.

Thanks to all for your concern. Sam, bruno and Ling got posted there. God is with us, we'll all survive. =)

........and one scorned! (#!$!@%)

I was so pissed thinking of her reaction. I've came across friends who asked why I wanted to be a teacher. I answered honestly "passion". Serious, I do find joy in teaching; at least more than the accounting course I took after SPM.

But to see her face looking down at my profession, and commented sarcastically about me going to Kapit, I do feel very hurt and disappointed of this so-called friend.

We shouldn't have wasted our petrol to visit her. You are working overseas, earning dollars; so what? If not for teachers, can you even graduate and be accepted to work overseas? You own an iPhone and mocked that kapit won't have 3G even I can afford an android. I was stunned. You are underweight yet you can straightforwardly commented a model figure lady gained weight, without any laughter to turn that sensitive critic into a joke? Geez, what have we done wrong to cause such discomfort in your eyes? Tell me.

I don't wish our friendship to end this manner; having you to look at your watch and shoo us away from your house, that was rather disrespectful and shallow action. You appeared rather decent on your pictures with your boyfriend. Though he loved you, but we overhead him commenting you shouldn't shoo guests during CNY. Hope this misunderstanding will cleared before we all go separate ways.

Ah....when my friends are too busy to listen to my story, this blog became my faithful listener.  Happy 2012 dear blogspot (^_^)

A time for everything

2012-01-25T21:38:00.000-08:00

There's a time for everything.

A time to cry
to unleash all the frustrations
and sadness
to cry out loud in bedroom when no one's around.

A time to spill out
one's thoughts on a blog.

A time to laugh and joke with friends
to take photos and develop the good ones

A time to make up
and wear heels and in new dress
and receive ang pows with a smile

A time to kill the hope of admirers
and a time to fantasize about future

A time to be isolated from the world
and dive deep into the swimming pool
and touch the bed

A time to smack at badminton court
and to strike in a bowling alley

A time to conquer mountains
and a time to put away old memories
in a memory box

because when 2013 cny arrive
there'll be a time to open the box
and smile upon seeing the old memories
which were so beautiful once.

Catciti Leisure Run 2012

2012-01-08T05:37:00.000-08:00

L-R: Shan Hui's brother doing medic, my kindergarten mate Yee Shien, yang lip, ME =), ah Kei, Robin :)

Civic Centre Tennis Court

starting point! gathered at 7am, 200-300 of us participants departed excitedly at 8am sharp :)

Saberkas

turned into Batu Lintang at the traffic light :) I jogged for 21minutes non stop, cutting through others was kind of ... motivating; but short term happiness, because very soon, guys in red started to zoom past me. haha!

Batu Lintang was flooded 3 days ago.

Jalan Sekama

round 3.2km here. Initially, I planned to derailed here and cut into Ellis Road to attend 1030am Sunday Service. *looking at my 7year-old Nokia 6020* it showed 829am~!! Wee~!! So I persisted :) a friend, CS, caught up with me and we jog-walk-run-walk, and I stopped by a 'try luck' yellow shop :P

Crown Squre

5km: Hydrating Spot! Had a memory of seeing marathon participants grabbing drinks from beautiful ladies at Hydration Spots, never thought I would be one of them. haha! Had my first Red Bull drink today. It was SO SWEET!!

Sri Putramas Swimming Pool

No idea where is that beautiful swimming pool in Kuching. But I couldn't google MBKS swimming pool - the pool I first stepped into during swimming lesson at Tadika Sri Keria; which my parents sent me over for swimming lessons every weekend. Thanks daddy and mummy, you both have really brought the 3 of us up comfortably well. Love love (^_^)

Welcome to Kuching

It started to drizzle by the time we reached this famous cat. Btw, this cat changes her costume every festival. haha. Happy Chinese New Year to all~! May this year of dragon be a blessing to you all (^_^)

Padungan Road

I popped into my brother-in-law's shop; wondering if baby Xin Yu has 'checked-in', but nope, still early for a Sunday. Being an environmental lover, I passed the Red Bull bottle to uncle, troubling him to show my sister that her little sister had actually ran past their shop XD

Plastic bag on head

Haha! The funniest thing I ever did. Since it was raining, I went in a Bak Poh shop and asked for a red plastic bag. Sheltered myself without even looking at any windows for reflection. 3 photographers for this Catciti Run actually spent few seconds to snap my photos. One commented "Cute". Haha, talking about positive motivation!

Star Cineplex

Made a round at Star Cinema and head straight to Main Bazaar.

Main Bazaar

Old builings in Kuching which became the tourist attraction. You can find souvenirs like local handicrafts/decorations/blackpepper/batik etc here. Waterfront is located opposite. [no idea why this entry started drifting to introducing Kuching. haha]

Kuching Post Office

We can see brides and grooms taking their wedding photos here quite often :) It's like sending a message: with a post office, we can survive long distance relationship. [Note: I do not want to be in a marriage where I will be distanced from my husband. Days for business trip, bring me along (if it's allowed). For years? Nope! Unless you are earning 1million a year. and that place is too dangerous for me to tag along. haha, ignore a girl's dream.]

Merdeka Palace. I think a Sultan once stayed here.

Sarawak Museum. You can find head skulls here XD

St Joseph Cathedral

The first church I went for a Christmas countdown =D Traffic was bad at the time we ran past church. I wonder if they are planning to expand their parking lot.

Exactly 99 minutes later, I reached the ending point. According to Yee Shien's Nike sports watch, we ran 12km, not 10km!! WEEeeeee~!! I still can't believe I did it, but the winner made it in 41 minutes, so I accepted this little triumph humbly.
Exhausted but extremely happy look. Another bottle of Red Bull =D

There were mountain bikers and traffic police men keeping an eye on us all the way. Thank you so much, Kuching Marathon Organisers, for all your effort in making this event a success! Looking forward to more health-activities in our developing city. 8 January 2012 is the day I accomplished my 2nd new year resolution! \(^_^)/

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Did I sleep after the run? or the whole afternoon?

Trinity Methodist Church

Nope. I made it to attend sunday service simply because I said a little prayer before the run. God is good, so good! Today's sermon by a new female pastor Wong, 'How to Pray?'

#1 Acknowledge God as Father in Heaven

when you pray, say:

"Father, hallowed be your name,

your kingdom come.

Give us each day our daily bread

and forgive us our sins,

for we ourselves forgive everyone who is indebted to us,

and lead us not into temptation."

Mitsu Coffee Shop @ RH Plaza

Met up my dearest friend, Alice for lunch. The wonder of friends --> Alice and I were classmate for only 1 year during Form 1 at SMK Kuching High. Ever since she moved to KL, we kept in contact via mails/cards/and occasional meet up when I went to KL. and this friendship is really one I appreciated alot, alot. The moment we met and hugged, our conversation started to flow, from happy memories to sad hiccups in life, from what we ate for dinner last night to ... ah, thank you God. (^_^)

after preparing for my teaching materials for tomorrow, I dozed off at 4:15-5pm. Facebook has been lagging for the past 2 hours. and it actually took me 2 hours to scribble here. Coursemates posted status, rumouring our posting will be out tomorrow. Ah...honestly, I no longer have high hopes after 7 months of waiting, because I am happy with every person/gifts/work/food/incident I am enjoying during this holiday. (^_^)

14 hours of non-stop rain in Kuching.

2012-01-04T19:34:00.000-08:00

This is the worst flood in Kuching ever.

5th January 2012, this morning, a Form 6 student stepped into a drain and got washed away by the flood at Batu Lintang. A petrol station saw and jumped to help her, but to no avail.

Dad called my phone many times but I went dancing class with neighbour. He broke this news to me earlier on, and when I checked Facebook, geez, many areas were flooded!

Please stay safe, my dear friends.

A Little Light by Carolyn Brunelle

2011-12-21T23:23:00.000-08:00

A LITTLE LIGHT

For everything a reason

and a season under the sun;

every puzzle has its answer

that is not uniquely our own.

Nothing remains a mystery

in the light of life's experience,

or hurts like the awareness

we cannot live it over again.

Yet nothing is ever lost if we

pass such wisdom to one another;

no life lived in vain, that sheds

light on the path for a brother.

Carolyn Brunelle

hide and seek.

2011-12-07T05:18:00.001-08:00

Why do we hide?

A. Afraid.
B. Nothing good will turn out.
C. Habit.
D. Don't want to hurt others.

Honesty is not the best policy after all. But, still, it is the fundamental requirement in a lasting relationship.

- Day 3, aeroplanes war in the classroom. It's a mess from the outside view, but I shared their joy in flying the aeroplanes.

Phonics is Fun

2011-12-06T00:40:00.001-08:00

"I don't want! I don't like! It's not fun!" cried little Rainbow.

"Be good, boy. Enter the class. Mummy will buy a lego set for you later, promise," his mother persuaded.

It's Day 2 for ITS English Camp at Tabuan Desa Branch. 'Our man' caught me by surprised when he burst into tears before the whole class. He resisted and fought back Principal Yu and his mother.

My heart sank. Have I failed as his teacher? Why was he so reluctant to enter my class?

I had a rough night. I woke up as early as 4am and cried myself back to sleep. No, it's not the kids. They are God sent angels.

After singing 'The More We Get Together', little Rainbow entered the class, accompanied by Principal Yu. Thankfully she's a wonderful lady and having her presence in class is not as daunting as my supervisor Puan Ashley for practicum. Bless you Mdm Yu!

Little Rainbow continued to buried his head in his folded arms, face down on the baby table.

Richard has asian black hair :P

"What is your name? What do you like? How old are you?" - Ice breaking.

"Rainbow?" Still, he ignored and face down.

"Rainbow is tired. We have to be quiet to let him sleep awhile, ok children?"

The other 15 kids nodded. They had been quite quiet after they witnessed Rainbow's outburst.

----------miracle after 15 minutes-------when I started to teach Phonics----

A ~ A a~ A a a ~ A a a a~

Amy Ant, Amy Ant,

What do you say?

I say A a,

Amy, Amy ant!

B~ B b~ B b b ~ B b b b~

Blue Bird, Blue Bird,

What do you say?

I say B b,

Blue, Blue Bird.

C~ C c~ C c c ~ C c c c~

Candy Cat, Candy Cat,

What do you say?

I say C c,

Candy, Candy Cat.

Rainbow woke up with a BIGGGGGG smile~! The rainbow is out after a heavy rainpour~!! He got so excited suddenly and even rose from his chair and rehearsed the phonics along~!

Of all the games, the kids actually enjoyed this the most! @_@

-------------during recess, 10am-----another surprise----------------

Rainbow held my arms and dragged me near him.

He whispered "Teacher, you forgot to say grace yesterday. Pray." He clasped his hands and bowed.

Despite having my hands guiding another kid doing her worksheet, I actually turned around and looked him into the eyes. Such a darling!

Though my school do not allow us to pray before the class, due to religion being a sensitive issue in this country, I could thank God in my heart, and, yes, Rainbow did say his grace before munching his doughnuts :)

Thank you children, for bringing rainbows into my world :)

Day 1 with little ones

2011-12-05T04:58:00.001-08:00

Mistake 1: Nearly distributed the whole stake of worksheets to children. I blame my nervousness. Kids, and some adults, might forget to bring the next lesson.

Mistake 2: Asked them to organize their individual ordered worksheets into daily stack. I gave an example and asked them to follow me from behind. Terrible mess. 2 out of 14 students succeeded.

Mistake 3: Re-arrange the table and chairs too near a small board. He accidentally knocked on it. The board fell on him, he cried, principal came in, she gave him sticker, he declined and dried his tears after the pain subsided. Our man!

Mistake 4: Helped the slower students with their worksheets while some boys played with the chalk on the board. The girls complaint; I didn't stop them. If this persist, sooner of later, they will climb over my head.

Mistake 5: Let the students out of the classroom when the school bell rang. One girl went missing! Her mother went frantic and nearly cried! The principal questioned me. I was puzzled and afraid. How careless! Few minutes later, the mother's phone rang. The girl's grandma came to picked her. End of panic.

Conclusion for Day 1 for International Tuition School English Camp, Level 1, 5-7 years old, 16 kids:

1. 35% followed me dancing "Our School will Shine Today", the rest mumbled and were shy to lift their arms.

2. 32% sang "School Song". The words are quite difficult for their level. Some smiled.

3. 89% ziraffah-ed their necks to see the pictures of 'The Pied Piper of Hamelin' on my netbook. 62% guessed the storyline when I paused for suspense. When I asked what is the moral of story, they answered "Mouse eat cheese!" -_-"

4. I guessed the story might be hard. So borrowed a BIG BOOK "Mamo and His Promise". The boy cat ate the fish though he promised mummy cat he wouldn't. He lied and broke his promise. Sister Cat scolded him, he apologized to mom and mom praised his honesty. 99% eyes on me when I meowed and yeah, they love BIG BOOKS.

5. Musical Instruments. I prepared 8, those with rice and beans inside containers. 50% without instruments were extremely sad; some carefree ones just clapped and marched behind me when old spiritual "When the Saints Go Marching In" was played. Spontaneously made another 6 instruments.

6. All are helpful in arranging desk to match softboards on the floor for story telling time.

7. 68% did poor colouring.

Reflection: I'm glad I didn't break into tears before them, due to personal emotions. When little Felice held my arms around her little neck, I felt all the energy draining hours before were worthwhile. Oh, she was the adorable one the went missing.

Lesson Learnt: Do not...

(P/s I told him)

----Humor is the spiciest condiment in the feast of existence. Laugh at your mistakes but learn from them, joke over your troubles but gather strength from them, make a jest of your difficulties but overcome them.

Lucy Maud Montgomery (1874-1942)-----

Reservoir Park Kuching

2011-12-03T02:34:00.001-08:00

Back from an hour's brisk walking with mom earlier. Once again, this Reservoir Park lifted my mood. How can one not be charmed by Mother's Nature?

Did you see the the platform above? Due to the non-stop rain in Kuching for the past 24 hours, it was flooded. Poor drainage. Nevertheless, the cooling atmosphere this evening successfully welcomed parents and tots and a few couples; as well as singles who are health conscious.

Can't help admiring the kids, posing with their father for their mother to snap a picture. - sweet memory, must pen down- :P

Ah, this photo was taken 5 years ago. I do hope this greenery will forever remain within the heart of Kuching. Oh by the way, that white tall building at 1o'clock is our Civic Centre; I used to enjoy playing the lift to get up there and enjoy the scenery and breeze. The gym which replaced the state library at the ground floor was also removed, poor feng shui I suppose.

Did you you the semi-globe besides Civic Centre?

Planetarium Sultan Iskandar

Though it's a just a stone's throw away from home, but I've yet to view our outer space.

Just googled: http://www.planetarium-sarawak.org/psi/index.php?option=com_zoo&task=item&item_id=10

Something to look forward to this week :)

TESL VS Pre School

2011-11-30T20:29:00.001-08:00

Hello Blog,
Sorry I didn't complete the Jurong Bird Park post last night.
The fingers just didn't coordinate with my mind and feelings then.

Anyway,
How are you, my friends?

Just came back from ITS English Language Camp 2nd briefing.
There are lots of preparation to be done.
And honestly,
I'm still thrilled.

Thrilled to the extend,
I am considering to do Pre School Education,
will it be a good idea?

TESL will be a better choice
because I've gone through the foundation and bachelor for 6 years.

Pre School will be something new
with all the songs, rhymes and riddles
games, story telling and....K.I.D.S!

The activities are way more interesting than higher secondary syllabus
but managing the kids?
I've failed to control my Form 1 kids during practicum
wonder will the 5-8years old be any easier?

Once again,
I'm thrown before a crossroad in a jungle.
Which path should I lead?

The left is mostly travelled,
should be a safer road.
The right is covered with shrubs
and there might be thorny grasses.

taken from: http://syukranview.wordpress.com/category/panorama/
(Geez, such a view, lai, sit back n day dream for few seconds.~)

But whichever path lies ahead
I'm sure I will not stay stagnant at this position
and stare too long,
watching other travellers passing by
one by one
leaving me all alone till the snow falls.

So....
MERRY CHRISTMAS to all in advance~!
HO~ HO~ HO~

SPP Interview 2011

2011-11-22T23:16:00.001-08:00

SPP Interview Tips for the under-prepared people (like me)

1. Have your documents ready in the right order, with the checklist + passport glued, on the front page. Original certs in 'Clear Folder'. Extra certs won't be awarded extra marks.

2. Remember your CGPA. Datok commented I downgraded my 3.757 to 3.753.

3. Introduce yourself. Name, school, reasons to be English teacher.

4. What are the skills needed in teaching? In groups of 5, we took turn by brainstorming answers like: listening, speaking, reading , writing, communication, interpersonal...

5. Pedagogy: Mastery Learning, Learn how to Learn, Multiple Intelligence, Constructivsm (5 choose one each) He requested this to be in BM.

6. No NKRA, no Falsafah Pendidikan Kebangsaan, no wawasan 2020, no lagu patriotik, no micro-teaching.

7. What are the current issues in Education? We talked about MBMMBI and the native speakers coming in the Malaysia.

8. Situation: Solve & give opinion. In a class, the teacher separated the class into 3 groups, genious, average, n slow learners. Good or bad? Why?

I think that's about it. I'm just very relieved he didnt ask bout the politicians and history. And, I'm glad my other 4 friends are so supportive and we helped each other out while we sorta stuck.

Overall, I regretted killing my cells by worrying too much.

The day continued with makan-session with coursemates. A sereni-and-shentel visit. 2 rounds of bowling. and....

....catching my flight to Singapore~!

*see, the fun part is highlighted. *wink wink* God bless all of us will pass the interview and berbakti kepada negara~ Good luck to those who will sit for it (^_^)

Pengenalan Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia

2011-11-20T22:36:00.001-08:00

Visi KPM: Sekolah Unggul Penjana Genarasi Terbilang

Misi KPM: Membangun Potensi Individu Melalui Pendidikan Berkualiti

Menteri Pelajaran

Y.A.B. Tan Sri Dato' Haji Muhyiddin Bin Haji Mohd. Yassin

Timbalan Menteri Pelajaran I

Y.B. Datuk Ir. Dr. Wee Ka Siong

Timbalan Menteri Pelajaran II

Y.B. Dr. Haji Mohd Puad Bin Zarkashi

Ketua Setiausaha

Y.Bhg. Dato' Dr. Rosli bin Mohamed

Ketua Pengarah Pelajaran Malaysia

Y.Bhg. Dato' Sri Abd. Ghafar bin Mahmud

http://www.moe.gov.my/?id=37&lang=my

Hainan Island Tour didn't come true.

2011-11-12T20:57:00.001-08:00

Haikou Travel Attractions

Holiday beachHoliday Beach, located in the west of Haikou, is a must-see destination for those visiting the city. Holiday Beach is a major recreational resort, is about 6 kilometers (about 3.7 miles) long, and enjoys a wonderful climate with sparkling waters, coconut trees, plenty of sunshine and clear skies…..

Mangrove Forest in Dongzhai PortMangrove is a tropical evergreen trees or shrubs of the genus Rhizophora, having stilt-like roots and stems and forming dense thickets along tidal shores. There are about 81 kinds of mangroves in the world and among them about 41 can be found….

Tropical Wildlife GardenThis is actually a tropical zoological garden which imitates the environment of the wild, covering total area of 1.3 square kilometers, in which visitors can take a look at various kinds of tropical animal in their relatively wild state…..

Dongjiao Coconut PlantationTo visit Dongjiao (Dongjia Yelin) coconut plantation, visitors will have to take a twenty-minute ferry from Qinglan Harbour. This plantation has 500,000-coconut trees of various varieties of coconut peciesTracking through small footpath among…..

Highlands HainanThe highlands, spread across the central belt of Hainan island are areas of great natural beauty, with huge towering mountains, breathtaking waterfalls and tiny Li and Miao minority villages dotted about the place all making this an unspoiled and surprisingly….

West Coast HainanIn western Hainan, there are vast tracts of forest and long mountain ridges. In particular, the rainforests of western Hainan are filled with mysterious new plants and rare animals, attracting travelers with their own special natural splendor……

--------------copied and pasted from : http://www.travel-china.net/haikou-travel-attractions.html ----------

Last year, I posted pre-Taiwan trip, and I did step my foot there; this year, for SPP Interview's sake, I can only google about Hainan Island, without leaving my footprints on my mother's mother's hometown this time.

Yang Ming Shan, Taipei~ The coldest I experienced! =D

Beach, canoe? We have it at Palm Beach & Damai Beach Kuching.

Mangrove? I've been to Bako National Park 2 months back.

Tigers? I've seen more well fed ones at Thailand and Singapore's Zoo.

Coconut trees? are you kidding, (i just went to check), yes, i've one right in front of my house.

Highlands? Cameron Highland, Genting Highlands, we have casinos and theme park there wei!

Yatch, haven't been to one, but not that i can afford that water sports even if i do go to Hainan Island...

Coconut tree wei .... Proudly presents our Hilltop Damai Beach (^_^)

Mangrove hike with youngsters.... Proudly presents our Bako National Park, where you can see the famous sea stake~! (^_^)

Dad, mom n I posing in the cool breeze... Proudly presents our Cameron Highlands :)

SO Yes, this is solely a self-comforting entry. Ooh, I'm just so sad! Even if I am willing to skip the interview, i know my parents will strongly oppose to that naive idea. At least Kevin and Aunty Jenny are secretly glad that I can tutor Jefferson now. Dearest blog, thanks for letting me pouring out. Hope the 17 of them had extra joy on my behalf :') btw God, I still love you! Sorry I felt unfair and complaint, and Thank You for the past wonderful trips, and many more to come~! =D

Falsafah Pendidikan Kebangsaan

2011-11-08T19:16:00.000-08:00

Falsafah Pendidikan Kebangsaan

"Pendidikan di Malaysia adalah satu usaha berterusan ke arah memperkembangkan lagi potensi individu secara menyeluruh dan bersepadu untuk mewujudkan insan yang seimbang dan harmonis dari segi intelek, rohani, emosi dan jasmani. Usaha ini adalah bagi melahirkan rakyat Malaysia yang berilmu pengetahuan, berakhlak mulia, bertanggungjawab, berketrampilan dan berkeupayaan untuk mencapai kesejahteraan diri serta memberi sumbangan terhadap keharmonian dan kemakmuran keluarga, masyarakat dan negara."

Simple Reflection:

Why do we study? Why do we even study to teach them to study? With this National Education Philosophy at hand, perhaps I would be constantly reminded that Education is a life long process to balloon up our individual potential. And the reason? So that we can create a balance and harmony individual intelectually, spiritually, emotionally and physically.

JERI. Another reminder for self and you, exercise is crucial; as well as knowledge, and spiritually journey and controlling our emotions. As I write this out, I am amazed by the connections between these 4 elements :)

Since young, we were taught moral values, in school and at home. Education will produce citizens who are knowledgeable, morally characterized, responsible, competent and ability to achieve well-being. Not only for self, but we should contribute to the harmony and prosperity of our family, society, country and world at large.

Knowledge, does not solely serve as information or explanation for others, but knowledge influence, change and shape what we are today.

God bless all, especially those we are sitting for the coming SPP interview! \(^_^)/

updated 7:58pm:

Q: How do I show someone unconditional love?

Here are 4 surefire signs to go by.

Physically: You're there for them in person, standing by their side, so they're not alone.

Emotionally: You offering your support by allowing them to honestly and openly express their feelings.

Mentally: You help them think through their actions, motives, and desires.

Spiritually: You pray for and with them and help them grow in all aspects of their life.

Dancing & Baking =)

2011-11-01T07:04:00.000-07:00

Being jobless, allows me to catch up with my neighbour, Aunty Carrie and Uncle Charlie. After a speedy 2 months as a relief teacher at Lodge National School, I went back to Senior Citizens Club to join their Monday's Ballroom Dance, Press Dance and Folk Dance.

Everytime I see them, I'd feel so much alive. Some are more than 80, yet they are so energetic is dancing; the grandparents woke up and 'gather' as early as 8am to play pool/snooker. It has been exactly 2 months since I last exercise (shameful), and though I'm a slow learner, I'm quite surprised when the beginners were amazed, asking how many years have I learned and ask me to teach them. Duh.. @_@ haha!

*Dancing is fun!*(^_^)
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Went to make more headbands with Pamela at Enid's house earlier. Enid taught us how to make cheesecake, chocolate rich cheesecake.

Recipe (Yvonne, you asked for this)

500g cheese

110g castor sugar

75g yogurt

45g whipping cream

++ melted chocolate

Base:

1 packet of smashed orea

1/4 bar of butter

* smashed, mixed and chill as base, in freezer

Baking in oven:

medium 3, 60minutes.

* use chopstick to 'design' the top chocolate-cheese

google picture only; Enid will only design the top layer the next day before sending over to customer's house =)

*Happy girls days-in* Without guys, we girls can fill our days meaningfully too (^_^)

i graduated

2011-10-25T22:02:00.000-07:00

Introducing my passionate Japanese Language UTM tutor - future ah sao : Miss Ida Tan :)

Baby Xin Yu: easily cries when attention is not given to her. love her smiles~

I never knew true and selfless friendship, until I met you. *lolx*

Andrew: Entering our 3rd year dating. Thanks for attending my convo darling =)

My secondary school mate came from Sunway, with his girlfriend. Thanks Sam! All the best to Steven and Jasmine too :)

Little Joanne: cute and bright!

Practicum partner Effah: She taught me how to cook simple dishes, tom yam!

Mark: the only Sabahan we have. The biggest palm i've seen!

Miss Ho. Yiing. Lucy. I'm just so grateful for graduating with a lucky First Class Honours!

11 out of 46.
Standing L-R: Tidy kalmeet, bestie Yvonne, ordinary Me, chatty Ziham, chef Sam, sexy Cynthia
Squatting L-R: handsome Bruno, angelic Amirul, religious Faris, helpful razmi and generous Khalis!

our Serdang Chinese Methodist Church juniors, all from Sibu =)

and my loving parents who can be very funny at times =)

Last but not least, Malcolm Tang: respectful, multi tasker, brilliant and an attractive hard core MU fan.

Heartiest thanks to all of you, for brightening up my life =)

Update request by Ed:

Ed, the man in black and blocks. Haha. Few adjectives about his buddy: Not forgiving (he still blames me uploading a picture of us which caused him to break up with his then gf); other than that, he's a funny guy, helpful, sincere and yes, he treats those who treats him well :) ps, hope our friendship doesn't end here (^_^)

coming to an end.

2011-10-24T23:23:00.000-07:00

7:45am Send pendrive to mom at General Hospital. Parents never grumble but dutifully send us to school since kindergarten days; I don't know if this happens to other families, but sometimes my siblings will be reluctant to do the 'Extra' chores. Eg: cleaning the kitchen, buying the groceries, having meals at home with parents or simply, have pillow talk/ tv session with parents. -p.s. had an 1 hour pillow talk session with mom last night <3 -

8:15am Googled for 'Doublewoot' again! Was at the verge of purchasing another blouse (Red Lacey top) until I had to deliberately pull over my bedsheet, start the washing machine, throw in my applegreen comforter, in the hope of distracting myself from the dress addiction. C'om, need not mention the Bosnia poverty, deep within our beloved Sarawak, there are countless of villagers who lived in poverty. How many headbands can I wear? How many dresses can one body wear a time? Yiing Yiing, please. Attn to Yvonne: help each other? (perhaps limit to 1-2 dress per income?) -_-"'

10:10am Gave Miss Cindy the pinkish headband. She loved it! She is interested to come over to make, perhaps a new friendship will be bonded :) Btw, through this madness of making headbands, Yvonne and I got to know a new friend: Enid Sim! She bakes; for sale; real good stuff.

12:30noon Busy preparing the final exams papers for each class; couldn't join Mdm Margaret and colleagues out for lunch. She said the shark tastes good; I had Nasi Lemak, RM 1:50, tastes good though its cold dy. haha.

1:45pm Back from class 2A. Gosh, I think I will miss this naughty class very much! Michael, Rita, Timotheus, Adeline to name a few. They are super talkative; yet they excel in tests with a near perfect score! They are natural actors and actresses; such potential and courage to act in front of the class! How I miss our Theater course in UPM =)

2:20pm Going to invigilate the Form 4 at the library later. 3 teachers invigilating at the same time =)

The spot I'm sitting at now, the teacher's room; the few colleagues I get to know, the students especially.. this school....2 months passed just like that.. solely for my memory.

How to Build a Human

2011-10-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

Another 15 minutes to enter 4D, one of my favourite class~ We'll be watching the documentary about cloning, entitled 'How to have Sex'.

The title alone excites the students; so is the teacher! As you know, EST is connected to Science and Technology. Therefore, seeing a penis penetrating a vagina is alike the notes we learn in Biology. Just that, we'll be seeing the video instead of an illustrated picture.

Honestly, I've shown part 1 'How to Build a Human' three times, for 4B, 4C and 4D; and the wonder of cells still captivates me! Imagine, we, able to sit here and typing, was actually from the fertilization of the biggest cell a.k.a. Ovum and the smallest cell, a.k.a. Sperm! Thousands of sperms attack the ovum, but only one will penetrate into it~ Ah...

Moral of the story: Appreciate the little things in life *lame* haha~

Travelling back to UPM, in 14 days!

2011-10-02T07:20:00.000-07:00

Travel, in the younger sort, is a part of education; in the elder, a part of experience.

Francis Bacon (1561-1626)

Clicked some buttons, and tada, a new layout for blogger~
If only life is as simple, just a few clicks here and there, then tada, we're made new~!

A weekend passed by so swiftly,
I spent my weekend at home,
chasing after another new Hong Kong drama,
there's this teacher name Miss Ho in there,
i like the carefree way she dressed to school,
and her enthusiasm and passion in teaching,
she chose to be transfered from Band 1 school to Band 3,
(band 1 being the tip top school)
and she's sought after by the two main actors~!
*wink wink*

Anyway, Monday is approaching,
another 4 weeks, i'll be leaving Lodge..
i sorta like the school, and the students
i bet as a teacher,
we'll have to experience countless 'goodbyes'

after she left,
I felt super lonely and the days were streched longer
but i'm grateful to experience being colleagues with my bestie
will we be like sister chiong Il and Qi qian?
to be posted to the same school??
*greedy mode on*

anyway, convocation is around the corner,
another 2 weeks,
oh, how much have i missed KL!
i don't miss Linguistic class, but i do miss Dr Jaya, Dr Edwin..
i do miss Bukit Expo and the UPM Swimming Pool
i do miss IK sessions and Euphoria night outs.
i do miss weekend away to melacca, genting, cameron and berjaya hills
i do miss Serdang Methodist Church and the camps
i do miss our theatre preparation and performance! (the highlight of this course, for me)
i do miss my roommates
i do miss working with Captivate and earning side income
ah.. thank you God

2 years at UPM, not long, but the memories...P.R.E.C.I.O,U.S
after this convo, i've no idea if i'll still go back..

Fun.

2011-09-21T01:56:00.000-07:00

Teacher distributes SPM Ramalan Kertas 2 for students.

Student A: "Can we not do this? It's so boring."

Student B: "We got A for XXX subject dy."

Student C: "Can we do something fun instead?"

Teacher pauses. "If everyone of you got 20/20 for the information transfer, then you may skip the essay part."

Students' gloomy face lits.

Teacher smiles, self talk: "Ah, kids being kids. You love fun activities, so do I. Less marking and why not? Thankfully all of you score A for this subject. So, how can I be a 'fun' teacher?"

Heartless me.

2011-09-11T05:38:00.000-07:00

Nelson gave me two hamsters on my 16th birthday.
6 months later, one died.
I cried myself to sleep.
Didn't even attend her burial.

2 weeks later,
the other escaped!
i guess she's too sad too.
i told myself, i'll never rear pets anymore.

3 years ago
my friends talked about her puppy
and my instant reply was:
i'd rather take care of real babies.

To me
it is one of the heart wretching sight to see them die
or even worse, abandoned.
i am a coward. i dare not shoulder the responsibility of taking care of them, nor can my heart bear to witness their departure.

the two labradors are barking loudly outside
i gave them my leftover bones
the black one snatched and the yellow one is left with one bone which flung out
i ran back home, in tears.

I can't even confirm if they are labs, but they look somewhat like this. i you-tubed, they're awesome dogs! they are a family dog, they are easy to train, they are strong! and i DO love 'em at first sight.

The Wait

2011-08-17T20:28:00.000-07:00

Is life all about waiting?

We wait to grow up.

We wait to finish primary school.

We wait to enter university.

We wait for our breakfast.

Introducing Sarawak Kueh Chap @ Sekama Road :)

We wait and queue for the famous hot item in market

Fried Durian (2nd stall) at Kuching Festival

We wait for night to come for bed

We wait for end of the month for pay day

We wait for end of the year for Christmas

when will I touch snow? :P

We wait for them to come home

We wait the day to finally meet up again

We wait for the moment of His Return

Suddenly, it downed to me again, since our final destination on Earth is Heaven, and there is a mission and purpose meant for us on Earth, we might as well fulfill His will the righteous way. Though no one would like pain and misery, but there's always this light that will shine brightly after a storm. While having breakfast with Aunty Barbara and Yvonne this morning, I found a new insight about our teaching profession. Like any other jobs, as long as it is not against the law or God's law, we should commit ourselves in it. Learn from past mistakes, letting go of a precious item because He has something better in store for you. Waiting, afterall, is just a continuous tense, as life is a continuous journey.

*****

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18 August 2011, 10:18am... She's coming~ \(^_^)/

Advice

2011-08-17T01:48:00.000-07:00

Advice.

What do I know about it?

A noun if it's adviCe.

A verb if it's adviSe.

Advice.

As the bible says,

we should be obedient to our parents.

99% of their advice would be for our best interest.

Advice.

Normal friends would not really spend much time worrying about your problems.

Good friends will probably listen and try their best.

Best friends will think in your shoes.

But,

however brilliant or sound may their advice be,

the final decision is still in your hand.

God bless you, my dearest friendS.

For You

2011-08-15T20:50:00.000-07:00

Today 16 August 2001, should be the due date my first niece see the world~

our princess, will you come out today? :)

Aunty Yiing promises to love you, not overly pamper :P

I wish you are healthy!

Adorable, lovely and most important of all, respect your elderly..

Will you be like sis or take after brother-in-law?

Anyhow, I'm sure we'll all love you to bits~

What will your name be?

Will you have the habits of sucking fingers like me?

haha, I think kids nowadays are more hygienic

and never did I encounter any kids who'd rather suck their fingers than baby soothers..

until I google and came across these~!!!!

Looking at these angels.. ah, I am really looking forward to see you! *excited*

God bless you my dear!

XOXO
Aunty Yiing :)

How are you doing my friends?

2011-08-14T22:02:00.000-07:00

Senior Citizen Centre, as the name called, is for senior citizens. However, for the past 2 months, I have enrolled for their Ballroom Dancing and Old Folks Dance. Thankfully, the teachers and elderlies are very passion and sincere in teaching a 'kayu' like me.

"Oh, you are waiting for posting?"

"Teacher? Good good~"

"You are still so young. Why not further your studies and get a doctorate?"

Wah, there's this graceful young grandma (yes, though i can see her wrinkles, but she still dressed in cheerful light purple dresses to class) who adviced me to further my studies. Hm.. Are we allowed to continue of masters now? Coursemates, can any of you remember what is written in our contracts with KPM?

Anyway, I came home, with a refreshed mind (if not for these morning exercises, I'd be very guilty of eating all those weekly Laksa - my favourite breakfast, after OATS --> white lie!) I checked my phone, another part time job, working a Kuching Festival! Yay, I therefore went to Looks Fa Bulous Facebook, and sorta make a 5 mins thought purchase! *wink wink*

Welcome to try our Sarawak Laksa! Love the fleshy prawns and the soup!

If you visit Kuching in August, then Kuching Food Festival is a MUST-GO!

Bio Ion. Be careful of the fragrant air fresher you inhale, they contains chemicals which is hazardous for health.

Bio Ion on the other hand, is 100 % plants extracts and as the company claims, it contains no chemicals and thus, he spray it into is mouth!

This is my life after 6 years of uni-maktab life. How about you?

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coconut kuih muih, not too sweet. i like!

my first Kurma this Ramadhan! reminds me of Ed :)

suka nie juga! :)

Guess what? Bubur Pedas! First time trying, spicy wei...

Curi-curi snap when they went for second round praying :)

Tada! Bon Appetite!

wishing my Muslim friends Selamat Berbuka Puasa! :)

Hello :)

2011-08-08T02:42:00.000-07:00

memer commented "you working with kenny sia? cool!"

sadly, i didnt get to work with him (at the moment), but after buying me lunch (just ipoh town coffee, while he had eggs n kaya toast n kopi o peng), he patiently explained why the basic salary is low, regardless if im a uni grad.

quote him " i was impressed by you at our interview the other day...bla bla bla..level up's door is always opened for you..."

ah..as much as i wanted to undergo his training as a staff there (which, according to him, internship is where you learn the skills, sth u don't learn at university), my passion for teaching is much greater. therefore, between my current home tuition SPM Jefferson and Level Up, i've made up my mind to help Jefferson pass him BM and score for other subjects.

I've forgotten alot bout SPM Science and Maths, and the exam format of BM and KOMSAS are new; but since his mom paid me, n he is keen to study, i will try my best to help him, while waiting for his previous home tutor to be home from outstation.

Though i couldn't get the best of the both worlds (level up morning shift, and night tuition), i am glad to have 3 conversations with my favorite blogger! First office interview, second he phoned me using his personal number, and third, a 45mins lunch chat at Ipoh Town. *wink wink* As for Jefferson, i do hope with my little knowledge, i can help make a difference in his life, a positive one!

*peace*

Truth. Friendship.

2011-08-07T08:48:00.000-07:00

Today is one of my happiest day~!

1. i confess to Kenny Sia that i was waiting for posting, and that i will leave Level Up should i receive the news. Honestly, i was very troubled when i told the white lie, to the extend i couldn't fall asleep at night.. Thanks to a few friends and when i attended sunday service today, Reverend Lau mentioned about honesty, truth...and Yvonne reminded me about the 5Cs that we learnt at Alpha Course last Saturday =) then later in the evening, Kenny called, not his admin but him, asking to meet him in person tomorrow afternoon...hm...

2. went 'double' date with Y & B and his bro. our first time going to fish prawns, kuching had very heavy rainpour this evening, many trees were fallen, a zinc roof at the prawn house fell off too.. but C caught a big water prawn~! yay!

3. went dating with Pamela, my childhood buddy =) i think this is our first time going movies without lightbulbs =D i strongly recommend The Rise of the Planet of the Apes. It tells us that somethings are meant NOT to be changed.

Lesson re-learnt:
1. Honesty is the best policy.
2. Life is beautiful with friends =)

A chat with student is happier than buying a dress!

2011-08-04T00:30:00.000-07:00

Student: Will you come back here again?

Student: we need to learn from a good teacher as u :)

Me: for vacation n fun mayb, but not to teach.

Student: Sad =.=

(Guess who is this student? *wink wink*)

i am NOT a shopaholic =P

2011-08-03T22:05:00.000-07:00

I am not a shopaholic! i'm NOT addicted to online boutiques..

gosh... i must have been influenced by my peers or should i just accept the fact that i fell to tempation.

the world is beautiful~

the girls in those dresses are gorgeous~

and to think dreamily, that i'll look good in those dresses!

ah...

since i activated back my maybank debit card,

i have bank in a few cheques this holidays

as well as transfering out :X

ah...

please let this fever be over~

how can i stop these itchy hands

answer: put those money in fix D

and tata~ wanna go have supper with friends also have to think twice

haha..

anyway, blogging this out to refrain myself from doing anymore online transactions.

Good day folks~~

btw, i'm loving my 'holidays'.. how bout u? :)

Diamond Peel at Slimming Sanctuary

2011-07-29T09:36:00.000-07:00

Slimming Sanctuary 11th Anniversary offers RM 11 packages.

Thanks to Savina, who sold her boyfriend's package to me, I get to experience DIAMOND PEEL facial treatment. Initially, I was aiming for the 45 mins 3 steps facial, but i'm a bad liar. Anyway, this time, the consultant was much more professional. She encouraged me to take the Diamond Peel treatment which originally costs RM 180!

The 10 mins was short, but I must say, after 3 days (and back from a short live-band-club-visit), I am still VERY HAPPY with the result. So what is so interesting about Diamond Peel? To me, it's like having mini vacumn cleaner sucking out all the dirt on your face, leaving it A.B.S.O.L.U.T.E.L.Y. clean - phrase quoted from the consultant.

Diamond Peel

This treatment uses wands with a disposable diamond tips that propels crystal flow to the skin and also vacuums away the dirt and dead skin cells. Immediately after treatment, the skin feels softer and smoother. Weekly treatment sessions produce the much sought-after «pinkish glow», making one look young and vibrant. Usually up to ten diamond tips may be used, and each of them is selected depending on the individual properties of the skin.

check out http://www.luxemag.org/health-fitness/diamond-peel.html or better, experience it yourself during this promotional period... :)

Reset. Rumba.

2011-07-27T20:35:00.000-07:00

I forgot my passsword for this blog. And i just went to Maybank to reset my password for debit card. Gosh, has staying at home for 2 months really aged my brain?!

Thankfully, passwords are so easy to reset.

Somehow, I wish I have better memories!

Recently, I joined my neighbour Aunty Carrie to Pusat Perkhidmatan Warga Tua, for dancing classes. No, my memory did not get worse because I mixed with the old folks. In fact, I salute each and everyone of them there. Most of them were retirees, if not 55 years old and above. BUT, they can dance! The steps!! The hundreds steps, they can remember them perfectly!!

I especially enjoyed the Ballroom Dance on Monday morning. The middle age male teacher was very generous and patient in teaching us. According to him, a dancing class can easily costs to RM60-80 per month. Therefore, we should appreciate the FREE coaching he's providing! :)

Steady right these dancers~! Anyway, learning the baby steps is fun. At least I no longer sleep till 10am!

Ms Ratha and Hui Yi are in town!

2011-06-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

cyn, sam, me, bruno, faisal, yvonne, hui yi & ms ratha

Belated entry. No idea when will we get to meet Ms Ratha.
She's like a mother to us.
When a teacher sincerely cares, even the most naughty/quiet student will cherish her.

bilin, ostrich rolls, sugar cane chicken, seafood soup, grilled lamb

haven't dine at Bla Bla Bla since 2009 christmas. The place changed, expanded to two floors. Another new pond and the seating arrangements were changed to accommodate more diners. We are all changing too; from walking past this restaurant at a younger age without $ to indulge, to going with special friends, to sister's convocation dinner, to bringing 'overseas' friends ... and maybe, the next time, to foot the bill for expanded family XD

love the sand, the wind...n the girl! :P

recently upgraded: infinity swimming pool.

met Uncle David here. A humble and hardworking child of God.

spaghetti bolognese, thai soup n sam, did u order lamb/chicken chop?

kesimpulannya, these are the among the few close friends i met throughout the 6 years TESL course. We'll be going to different schools, may our wish to be posted near home come true. Do come again, Hui Yi, and bring your other half along. Thanks to Yvonne and Cynthia for driving us around Kuching - hometown is always one of the best place in the world~! :)

Practicing mother tongue. Lolx.

2011-06-12T22:16:00.000-07:00

很久没写华语了，昨晚看了Mandarin Battle，哇靠！现在的小学生怎么那么聪明有才华啊？我的华语真的生锈了，十题名句精华，格言，谚语，我才答对三题，可悲！

最近心情还挺风波的，是时候调整心情，笑一个！

MaDeup Tutorial

2011-06-08T01:05:00.000-07:00

Have you ever feel ugly? How many of us are willing to upload our not-so-pretty pictures/videos? Out of boredom, my buddy decided to paint my tired-looking face. This is her work:

Aftermath,

Due to impulse, on the last day at JB, Creative's hair stylist cut my hair way too short that I swear Yvonne can hear me crying in my heart. To console me, my makeup artist-buddy-cum-photographer produced her 2nd work:

medium/long suits me more?

or short?

scribblings of thought

2011-06-03T23:30:00.000-07:00

it has been exactly one week since I came back from Johor Bahru. What have i done?

Gawai visiting? Nope.

Beach? Nope.

Mountain climbing? Nearly, but nope.

Badminton? YES! with 4 old time buddies: Robin, Kei, Owen & YLip. No gurls :(

Weddings? Just witnessed another beautiful church wedding, of Alvin Ho and Adeline. It was held at St Joseph's.

Yam Cha? Oh yes, Sunny Hill Ice Cream with Ted. Arts Meal with Alex. Novus Cafe with another 10 secondary school mates. Rock road seafood, kolo mee, pizza hut and kfc with Andrew, Hong Kong Noodle House with Yvonne, Adeline and Alex, Delize with Yvonne, Andrew, Cynthia and her bf, Gilbert~! Nice meeting him, Cyn :)

Cambridge? Yes, thankfully it's Gawai so there are few opportunities to meet as adorable as 7 years old and as wise as 60 years olds. Haha~

Movies? Yeap, re-watched Pirates 4, and dozed off, in cozy arms :P Kung Fu Panda 2! Oh, *smiling now while recalling back the innocent baby Po* (^_^)

Blogging? Nah, have been very lazy. If not for now that i'm home alone, practically killing time. Haha.

What should i do next week? Ah...i wanna get a job! not solely for $$, but i'm just bei-sit-tiam. Haha.

Activities in mind:
1. gym
2. piano
3. reading
4. baking
5. florist?
6. swimming
7.
8.
9.

ah...time to be driver. chio~

16 May 2011 \(^_^)/

2011-05-20T09:53:00.000-07:00

A dream came true~

16 May 2011 marks my 24th birthday and 1st time celebrating Teacher's Day. I had a super awesome time. It must be the hundred wishes from friends and family~! *wink wink*

Birthday present from Andrew.

We had a fun and memorable telematch with coursemates at IPG KTI's field. I don't like the dodgeball because I'm not good at dodging and it's painful when the ball hit me. But, I truly enjoyed the water ball. Anything connected with water is fun, to me. That's why I plan to wear this flower printed dress to Perhentian Island next week~! (^_^)

Yvonne, thanks for making my 24th so special!

They say one can have many friends; but when it comes to true friend, I can barely name a few, but proudly name - Yvonne Ling Soon Chiin. Muacks~ (^_^)

Birthday cake from Andrew. Thanks darling~\
Very happy many of my coursemates turned up for my birthday dinner, unexpectedly. Let me recall and name them here: Cain, Cynthia, Sam, Hui Yi, Yvoone, Hui Nee, Bruno, Saiful, Ed, Sean, Ah Boy, Sche, Azhar, Fahmi, Fadzuan, Kamarul.. May you all be GREAT teachers~

from L-R:Miss Ho :), Mentor Mdm Jaya, Partner Efa, Annusha

thanks for the cute bear dear Hazira~

Hazira is one of my top scorer in Form 4 KP 2. An active lady who can be emotional at times, girls wad. haha. she's the first girl to request a kiss, n i gave, n she returned. :)

Xin Tian & Mei Ting

Two lovely girls from Form 1 KS. I am going to miss you girls so much! Mei Ting, thanks for the dolphin, i'll place it on my teacher's table :)

Efa's Form 4 Sc 2 boys

met many of MU supporters today :P

Rock & Roll boys band~

Teacher's Day lunch at Seoul Garden, KSL

efa managed to go for 3-4 rounds, so worth for buffet. sadly, i can't finish my first round.

Roses from Andrew :)

Yvonne and Haslina popped in Seoul Garden with this!! i was shocked to see this. teachers watched me, and i think my mentor caught my watery eyes when i read darling's note. Ah...thank you darling, you made my 24th birthday so memorable. i love the roses and my heart leap with joy when i received it. However, it is dying now, hung on my window. conclusion, don't spend so much on bouquet of roses next time. One, will do :)

12 roses - Be my steady.

Next year, i will be able to celebrate my birthday with darling, family and friends~ Yay, can't wait to graduate. Principal advised me to keep up my enthusiasm like now and be a great teacher that inspire the students. Thank you my dear friends for making my birthday so special, all Glory to our Almighty God :)

we are family

2011-05-13T21:38:00.000-07:00

One more week, and I'll be leaving SMK Taman Mount Austin. Two more weeks, and I'll be leaving Full Gospel Church and the awesome CG members.

From Left to Right: J'shua, a spirit-filled pastry chef~
Boon Fei, young at heart pastor
Angela, active cell group leader, wife to boon fei
Hui Fang, cool and adorable young lady
Ivan, fast n furious car lover
serene, successful business woman
jia yi, vocalist & piano teacher

Right now, i'm in a dilemma to head home straight after practicum or explore West Malaysia till 11th June, my accidentally purchased air ticket. Knowing myself, I would gladly choose vacation. But, I do not have my own transport (that is why i am stuck alone at home now while my other 3 roommates are out dating), it will be less enjoyable to take bus rides alone (Yvonne, what says you?)

RM 500-600 to buy a new ticket for end of May. Dad wants me to go home, saying i'll spend more if i stayed till 11th June. But, for RM600, i can go to Terengganu, maybe Langkawi or even cross the border line into Bangkok! Phuket, I've never been there!

Ida came to bring me out for early birthday celebration :) Hope our dreams will come true XD

Brother Desmond is off to Bali today. He shared his diving trips to Phuket and that was where he took his advance diving certificate. Ah...when my dream to dive come true?

We are family~

Kahlua :)

2011-04-22T02:19:00.000-07:00

"Reflections - emotional and narrative."

"Poor classroom control. You are too kind to your students and I didn't see any form of punishment."

"Sendiri syok -other groups talk when you present their Mother's Day Card."

How can I screw up my final major observation? Why had my beloved Form 1 KS been exceptionally hyper today? Allowed myself a good outburst and decided to just photocopy exercises for tomorrow's Final Minor Observation.

What will this lazy action lead to? More failures?

- preparing for Alpha and Philippine Cuisine, and perhaps few Kahlua shots before Good Friday ends~!

The Sound of Music

2011-04-12T19:11:00.000-07:00

spent my sick leave watching "The Sound of Music" (apart from resting)

My childhood favorite movie didn't fail to impress me at this age of 23+. As the time passes, we'll discover a deeper underlying message of the movie, as well as life lessons.

One thing i learnt the hard way:
consult doctor and eat the medicine obediently.
Yes, it's super bitter to chew as i can't swallow the pills. But i think the medicine are effective as i blew out the phelgm. argh...germs germs, please go away asap. i don't wanna miss any day at school...

Thanks to "The Sound of Music" that makes me so happy despite being in this unwell situation.

ideal family time!

"My favorite things" ah...."Edelweiss" Ah.... reminds me of my childhood times when i came back from Kindergarten, mom'll feed me while watching this movie over and over again....the script are still so fresh in my mind...Thanks to those who taught me to download this movie :)

self talk

2011-04-11T21:45:00.000-07:00

why do people fall sick?

- germs
- stress
- felt unloved
- psycho. haha!

i hate coughing...felt bad to spread germs to my housemates, colleagues and students. Arh.... fever is not fun either. watery eyes and cold sweat, even students asked 'teacher, are you very hot?". Ah...

how i wish to be back home this weekend. then i will be able to cast my first vote :)

risk taker?

2011-04-11T07:35:00.000-07:00

are you a risk taker?

i shall do a personality test on this...i think i am, at times. (brb in 5 mins)

HUMANMETRICSRisk Attitudes Profiler™

Your Risk Group

Risk Attitude	Low	Moderate	High
Index

Haha... :)

Unwanted Stress.

2011-04-09T21:57:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been the cause of a breakup?

I think, i indirectly caused 2 couples so break up...but my friends assured me that, no, it's not my fault...after talking to God, n He answered that...this may be a good chance for me to share gospel with them.

Indeed, i always believe, it is very important to have the same religion in a relationship. and as far as i experienced, God is the one that brought Andrew to me. and though there were ups and downs in our relationship, we managed to overcome and reconcile...again, it is God at work.

I am not trained to share gospel, especially with my immediate family and friends..so i chose to pray and let my actions do the talking. many a times, i did not portray a good christian example, especially in terms of gossiping and complaining...but i'm learning, reducing the negativity and promoting love among my students...

to my friends,

there are very good reasons to the closED doors, and more reasons to the many open windows!

God bless you all! (^_^)

Need Strength...

2011-03-31T01:02:00.000-07:00

Right now,
I am very troubled
for tomorrow's observation.

I've no idea why I was so relaxed for the previous ones
I should have faith that my Form 4 KP2 will cooperate
and they will be able to construct sentences with phrasal verbs
It shouldn't be difficult, right?

time to prepare the materials
update my Rekod Pengajaran Harian
update my portfolio
write my journal
and..
have a good early sleep.

Ah...
Practicum...
As much as I hope 20th May will approach soon
I think i will be very sad to leave my students,
notably the Form 1KS and Form 4 KP2

I pray that you all will be successful in the future
be good and play your role as a student
shine for the Lord~

as I too,
am playing my role as your teacher
forgive me if i didn't meet up to your expectations
and thanks once more,

for being my wonderful children at school :)

My Good God (^_^)

2011-03-30T02:13:00.000-07:00

So tired of feeling anxious of my coming observation that I repeatedly edit my lesson plan. What a waste of anxiety! That is when God shows His great love to me again: (^_^)

Friends, trust the Lord. He answers to our prayers and He knows what is troubling us even before we call for His help... Praise the Lord (^_^)

On this day of your life, Silverin, we believe God wants you to know ... that your remedy for anxiety is the question: 'Will this matter in a year from now?'
	All too often you get so involved in things that you look at life through a microscope. Amplifying manifold, an invisible speck becomes an insurmountable mountain. Put down the microscope and imagine yourself a year from now looking back at today: 'Does this really matter?'

Dreaming of Singapore, again (^_^)

2011-03-29T20:00:00.000-07:00

Jurong Bird Park

These unorganized pictures show my current state of mind: wanting to go to so many places.... haha. I'm not a big fan of birds, but seeing beautiful and colourful creations like this surely makes me happy~ Therefore, this is a to-go place for me :)

teaching point: tendons?

ligaments, tendons etc... I think i've returned 50% of biology to my teacher. I remember cynthia told me, all those Biology facts came to sense after she visited Singapore's Science Centre. Hallelujah! A solid reason for me to bring my children to singapore~! --> Education purpose! haha...

Snow World @ Science Park

Touching snow has always been my childhood dream. I've been to a few man-made snow world, but experiencing real snow flakes and skiing would be totally different~! Bila la...

Welcome to Singapore

This might be the view from Singapore Flyer huh? Ah....i feel safe walking on the streets as early as 2am in the morning...

Jurong Bird Park Performance

I love zoos! I'd strongly recommend the one is Thailand. The shows are awesome and memorable. I remembered volunteering and lie down on the ground to be massaged by the baby elephant using its trunk. Ah... Vacations dream while working..haha~! :)

Science Centre

Hulallal!

The picture says it all ya? Wow, i missed Genting!! Currently waiting for kaki(s) to go to Universal Studio.

oo.so they have this kinda games/sports inside!

Now i missed Sunway Lagoon! haha...The first time i entered Sunway Lagoon was with family (primary 2), and the last time with friends (Year 2 TESL).

Oh, that's all folks. Another 10 mins to prepare for a relief class...Ah...how nice is there is another week of holiday in April~ Guess i've to patiently wait till my practicum ends go mid May, talking about celebrating Teacher's Day and my birthday~!! Wahaha... I'm such a dreamer~! :P

Thanks for reading people; my pleasure to share wonderful stories/pictures~ May God bless you all ~! :)

To be or not to be.

2011-03-28T20:28:00.000-07:00

Today,

It struck me again,

do i really want to be a teacher?

till i retire?

am i even qualified for this job.

Marina Bay Sands. Clarke Quay. Sentosa Island. Night Safari.

2011-03-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

Durian will always be one of my favourite fruit, despite making me sick.

Checked-in at Royal Backpakers, $95 for this room :)

Gonna start earning my first salary this July, hope I could afford more luxurious hotels. After all, vacation is for us to relax and enjoy~

Senior Yvonne.

She flew all the way from Kuching to revisit Singore and JB. See, she's started working, so, she can afford to stay 3 days at Singapore, while the 3 of us have to come back, dried, at12:30AM. haha.

Cynthia, my one and only Melanau friend :)

Happy for her! As she's met her prince charming. Whenever she mentions about her bf, I can see the happiness in her eyes! All the best Cyn~! :)

Bestie Yvonne!

This is the countless trip we 2 have traveled to Singapore. I thank God for such a blessing to have you throughout these 6 years of tertiary education. It is at times like this (I'm sick), that i recall how you took care of me when i was sick back in hostel. Thanks dear~

JaJangMyun!

Darling's favorite! Brought him to Jade Pot Tea House the other day, but he said it doesn't taste like the Korean JaJangMyun he once cooked with his Korean mate. Talking about satisfying a man's appetite...haha!

Yes, i finished the bowl of beef noodle, alone! :)

The moment i saw this dish on the menu, my mind ran back to Taiwan trip. The Taiwanese Beef Noodle is once again, way better than this. Another good reason for me to revisit Taiwan. :) I thought I covered many places in Taiwan during the 21days camp, but nah, there are so many food and places i have yet to try~

Flyer! Entering Marina Bay Sands~

Amir had introduced me Marina Bay Sands the other day. Only when I entered this zone, i felt 'awed', by their building structures. I don't know much about architecture, but i know these pleases my eyes~ Haha!

Saw the ship on top of the building?

Guess what? They have this 'infinity' swimming pool! Entrance to sky park is $20, and we don't even get to have a dip in the swimming pool...one day, perhaps when i won jackpot, i would spend a night or two at this hotel :)

Marina Bay's Casino took my $4, so i sipped his 2 cups of milo & 2 bottles of water :P

Super cold inside, thanks to Ida for reminding me to wear jacket, and thanks to Yvonne for lending me her shawl :) When i entered, i can't find any smiling faces. The place is crowded, we took 1 hour to find senior yvonne. Why are people paying so much and wasting so much time to be disappointed and sad... How many will truly win alot? I don't know. Anyway, it's an eye-opener for me :)

Apparently, i have yet to enter Universal Studio.

Can't wait to go to Universal Studio with my friends! Heard most of them have lots of fun there, though there are still a few games that are not opened to public. $77, another amount of money i will spend willingly.

I love the deco!

I'm not a candy lover, but who would resist such colourful temptations?

Once broken, considered sold.

After years of seeing that reminder, i am finally the victim. To cut the story short, i walked out buying that jar of Frooties, happily. Thanks for a wonderful job, Kelvin :)

Indulgence.

Ice cream works for me best when im sad. And when i'm happy, it doubled my joy~! :)

Siloso Beach @ Sentosa Island.

Beach or shopping centre? I'll certainly choose to be at the beach! The feeling of my feet on the sand can lit an immediate smile~ Ah, with the cooling sea breeze and lapping of sea waves, whatever worries or problems at work are taken away back to the sea. :)

Clarke Quay

Fountains~ We can actually walk into the water fountains, snap a picture or two, and not get wet. Yes, i totally agree, Clarke Quay is one of the most beautiful tourist spot in Singapore :)

$ 24 Beef Croissant
dinner at TCC @ Clarke Quay.

$ 14 Mushroom Croissant

View from National Library Building.

Talking about cultivating the reading habit of Malaysians. When i compare our Johor State library to Singapore's, nah, there's nothing to be compare at all.

Conducive environment for group discussion.

Night Safari. $ 35.

First show: Iban Performance.

Modern type with rock music and dangerous but awesome fire performance :)

Ops. Lazy to tilt.

Wonder will i ever finish reading these books. Second hand book fair, ranging from $1-6. :)

Conclusion?
This is my last semester holiday as a student. Looking forward to the upcoming trips~! (^_^)

2011-03-11T17:27:00.000-08:00

I attended this Alpha Course last night and had a truly good time fellowshipping with the T&T FGC members, with super delicious food like shepherd Pies, mushroom soup, nuggets, fries etc... It was an interesting topic to discuss, we have few philipines with us and they shared touching testimonies~ Quite sad i missed out the first introductory session last Friday, looking forward to the coming lessons~!

Structure

The Alpha course is organized as a series of sessions over 10 weeks, typically preceded by an 'Alpha Supper' which often includes the talk "Is there more to life than this?" and with a day or weekend away which includes three or four of the talks asterisked [*] below. Each session starts with a meal, followed by a talk (often a video of one by Nicky Gumbel) and then discussion in small groups. The talks aim to cover the basic beliefs of the Christian faith. The complete list of talk titles, which follows the chapters of Gumbel's book Questions of Life, is:

Is there more to life than this? (previously Christianity: Boring, Untrue and Irrelevant?)
Who is Jesus?
Why did Jesus die?
How can we have faith?
Why and how do I pray?
Why and how should I read the Bible?
How does God guide us?

Who is the Holy Spirit? [*]
What does the Holy Spirit do? [*]
How can I be filled with the Holy Spirit? [*]
How can I resist evil?
Why and how should I tell others?
Does God heal today?
What about the church?
How can I make the most of the rest of my Life? [*] ^[4]

Attenders are issued with The Alpha Course Manual, which contains an outline of each talk and space for making notes.

P/s Japan was hit by a 8.9 magnitude earthquake which results in heart-wretched tsunami, sweeping away lives and killing the economy - 11 March 2011, a day to mourn despite it's the first day of our school holidays... God bless them..

Tell me.

2011-03-10T21:56:00.000-08:00

Tell me,

What should i do.

When should i be a lioness.

Where should i seek solace.

Who should i share my troubles with.

Why am i even sad.

How can i overcome.

New Kingdom. New Attitudes.

2011-03-06T05:18:00.000-08:00

After the heart-felt Sunday service at FGC, I pandai-pandai signed up for their Alive Course, Discovering Spiritual Maturity. Today, Pastor James shared about A03 "New Kingdom. New Attitudes."

We were given a booklet, just fill in some missing blanks. I find this idea of lesson very effective! Pastor James is another bubbly and energetic man! 1-5pm, with 10 minutes coffee break, i never wanted a take-10 to end that fast as we were all thirsty for God's words :)

There is so much to share, the whole book, i don't know where to start. So, i'll just share as much as i can :)

Welcome to a New Kingdom.
There are primarily 2 kingdoms.
The Kingdom of Satan.

This is the kingdom we belong to BEFORE we became Christians. (Eph 2:2 in which you used to live)
The ruler of this kingdom is Satan.
We 'followed its ways'. We adopted its culture and lifestyle.

The kingdom of God.

This is the kingdom we belong to AFTER we have become Christians.
The ruler of this kingdom is God.
We must now adopt its culture and lifestyle.

The TRANSFER of Kingdoms.
The two kingdoms are totally different.
They are total opposites.
Comparing the practice of the two kingdoms.

The practice in the kingdom of darkness (Gal 5:19-20) --> Worldly System

St Michael expelling Lucifer and the rebellious

Sexual immorality
impurity
sensuality
idolatry
sorcery
enmity
strife
jealousy
fits of anger
rivalries
dissensions
divisions
envy
drunkenness
orgies

The Practice in the Kingdom of God (Gal 5:22-23) --> Godly System

Love
Joy
Peace
Patience
Kindness
Goodness
Faithfulness
Gentleness
Self-control

The way to function in the Kingdom of God

Receive the life of Jesus (change of position)
Depends on our every right choice (Change of action)
We need to adopt new thoughts (concepts)
We need to adopt new practices (habits)

3 necessary SHIFTS in our thinking

From seeking personal security in material possessions to seeking personal security in God's promises.
From seeking personal significance in man's approval to seeking personal significance in God's way.
From seeking personal success in man's way to seeking personal success in God's way

Conclusion: One of the very important keys to Christian Growth is making the right choices.

Our Home in Heaven (^_^)

Reflection:

Geez, so wordy, i would fall asleep looking at these notes. So, join us, experience the LIVE course together!! Next Sunday, Pastor James will talk about "Change Concepts, Change Lives" too much information for me to digest in one afternoon. Will try to share in more effective ways next time :)

ACTS - Adopt a Child To School

2011-03-06T04:50:00.000-08:00

"Touching People, Changing Lives"

This is the theme of Full Gospel Church, JB this year. God, you know just how grateful I am to be so near you though i'm now further away from my peers.

Today, we have the special guests from Philippines ACTS. How much have i missed ACTS church at Summit. How are you my dearest Elish, Steph, Ian and friends?

Praise the Lord! The Adopt a Child To School Programme has been going on strong for the past 6 years, starting with 23 students to the current 107 students. Indeed, not only do the ministry get to reach out for these students, they get involved with their families as well. So, a family of 10 members X 107 students, can easily reach up to 1000 lives~! Hallelujah!!

As Sister Ellenita (sorry if i mis-splet) points out:

1. We cannot do miracles, but God USES us to teach them about His works and it is God who does the miracles.

2.There are many who are not reached. (Luke 10:2 "He told them the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few")

3. "Let's not pray for lighter burdens, but for STRONGER bags." (Now, that's a powerful line i love!)

4. "Marriage is not a word, but a sentence. Life Sentence."

5. L.O.V.E. makes us do things BEAUTIFULLY :)

6. We can work. We can teach. We can encourage.

7. TEAMWORK is the goal for everyone.

8. Be part of the mission of God. When? NOW!

Yay! Found my favorite pastor's FB!! Haha :) http://www.facebook.com/pages/Kenneth-Chin/126204557371?ref=nf&sk=wall

DAIMAN

2011-03-04T19:10:00.000-08:00

RM14 per hour, anyone wanna come to Daiman's court?

Always wanted to be good at badminton, even berkobar-kobar and bought a good racquet with Yvonne back in UPM. But? Hardly get the chance to play back here in JB... sadness.. and thr's this marvellous badminton court just opposite my house here...but no kaki.... how to improve my badminton skills? enjoy seeing the guys do smashes and back-hand swings~ Dato Lee Chong Wei ( the one and only Malaysian sportsman i admire~! )

baby pool!!

Aha! you can imagine my joy when i stepped into the swimming zone! How have i missed swimming!! it has been more than 3 months since i last dip into a swimming pool~ RM9 per entry. Missed UPM's free entry swimming pool~ Ah.... Plan to go this evening/night :)

2 pools~ Wait for me baby!

Just seeing you makes my heart leaps with joy~!

Couldn't get enough of snapping down beautiful sights :)

Daiman Sports Club even offers driving range :)

Another sports i'm not good at but have interest in :) RM980 per month by a a coach, if only....

Swing your waist~!

But...

The best part is :

They offer PADI diving course!!!

Man, this IS one of my dream!

RM1390, 4 Days course. 2 days in-house training and 2D1N at Tioman Island, diving equipments and accommodation included, anytime. Excluding transportation to Mersing and food. Now, who is interested to get the diving certificate? :)

note: Last two days iPad 2 launched, i thought "man, i never wanted a gadget so badly. But now, entering the diving corner, i realized, i would trade in 10 ipads just to get to dive deep into the ocean!"

Santa Claus....guardian angels...my dearest samaritans...

http://www.padi.com/scuba/padi-courses/diver-level-courses/most-popular-speciality-courses/default.aspx

PADI has this special e-gifts for friends. *wink wink*

For.Give.

2011-03-03T07:01:00.000-08:00

Forgiveness.

I used to think
Forgiving someone is hard
hard in the sense of laying down our pride

we may have forgiven him/her in our hearts
yet we dare not tell them
nor do we have the courage
to heal the relationship

however
after 'practicing' forgiving
and 'experiencing' being forgiven
i realized
it's not that hard after all

Just a simple
'I'm sorry'
or,
'Gohmeinasai
will do wonder

That word can tumble the wall
Strong rightO?

so to those who are struggling with forgiveness
perhaps you can have this in mind
'that we are all children of God
and He has forgiven our sins,
so are we greater than God
till the extend we couldn't forgive that someone?'

On the bright side
we feel happier
when we have one less enemy

i believe
every religion teaches us to be good
and the art of forgiving
tops the list of well-being

good luck to all

*this post is also a reminder for myself, always forgive, with an open heart.

God bless you all :)

10secs x2 downpour

2011-02-27T01:40:00.000-08:00

It's freaking sunny out there
and the sun in blazing into my aircon-less room here.

So
I had a 10seconds x 2 downpour
Felt slightly better

No one to blame

I just miss home
I want to be back at my comfort zone

I don't dislike my profession
The notorious students, the RPH burden
The loneliness and hunger of concentration (trying to rhyme)
I ...miss my friends and family.

Can anyone take me away from here soon?
Thanks a lot!

It's alright.
Momentarily on Earth only, right?

-miss-

3D2N Scouts Camp

2011-02-19T00:52:00.000-08:00

Departing from IPG Kampus Temenggong Ibrahim, Johor Bahru
to
SK Kampung Johor Lama, Kota Tinggi.

This is the first time I participated in a scout's camping. Though it is not located in a jungle where we can actually experience the wilderness, I truly enjoyed it~!
Thanks to my beloved B.Ed TESL IPG-UPM coursemates, I would really miss you guys once we graduate...Huhu..

Kalmeet & Dharmini. Side way and pull-able SWING~!

I have always loved swings~! They are my favorite playground game! I love just swinging there and appreciating the nature surrounding me. Though I'd love to have a swing in my own house, but the idea of being 'fenced up...huhu..

Encik Yusof.

There are many jurulatih who helped us alot throughout this 3D2N camp. Thanks alot to you guys~ Though we just got informed by UPM that without gerko we won't grad, you guys immediately took us in your hands. Sorry if I didn't put in my best effort, esp the log book. Monday is approaching = practicum! Deng Deng~

Aruke. "Walk" - our favorite song :)

I love the sing-along sessions~ Wonder if I'd dare to sing before my students like Encik Yusof. Haha. Alamak, no pictures of Encik Hamdan! He's my favorite non-TESL lecturer in IPG!! Charismatic sungguh!! Hehe~!

Looks simple? I'm super proud of us Singa(s)

We worked on these gadgets till 6am dawn, a very memorable night we spent as a patrol! Though all of these hard work was off the ground in 20-30 minutes, I am still amazed we made a tables, penyidai pakaian, rak kasut etc, that is USABLE!! talking about survival skills? mastered 5%? haha!

The biggest table in the patrol. Re-construct after a heavy rainpour.

Life is like this bamboo table. We have to have friends. Bak kata pepatah, bersatu teguh, bercerai roboh. And, sometimes we need to depend on the help of others; in this case, the rafia strings. To be successful in life, we need to have a strong foundation (dipacakkan dalam bumi), or we'll tumble when we face challenges (heavy rainpour) unpredictably...and most important of all, i think, like the bamboo table, we have to have a sense of worth. Are we important to the people around us? How can we help the make this a world a better place? By educating the future generation or by conserving our nature? Like this bamboo table, it served its purpose to 'serve' us teabreak (yummy cucur!) before it R.I.P.

Thank you for reading. Aruke~! (^_^)

Tears of Joy (^_^)

2011-02-12T22:22:00.000-08:00

Today, 12.02.2011 Sunday,

I accepted Christ as my personal Lord and Savior.

My palms are cold,

when i stood forward onto the stage.

Acknowledging someOne who has loved me,

forgave me,

and heal me...

I could have been more proud

and shout to the world

that,

He saveD me.

From today,

I am a renewed person,

all my past are left behind,

I'd change for the better!

May you all have a blessed CNY 2011,

welcome to enjoy the abundant life given by HIM!

Thank You, Jesus.

Praise the Lord!

I LOVE YOU~!

Special thanks to my spiritual life partners:

Darling Andrew,

Yvonne Ling,

Agnes Wong,
Aaron Lee,
Wilson Khor,
Charles Liew,
Foo Ying Ying,
Josephine Bong,
Albert Tiong,
both Christopher Ling (s),
Elisha,
Aunty Jennifer,
Aunty Lian Dai,
Miss Chong
........
.....
..
.
Malcolm Tang,
Richard Ting,
Lawson Chung,
Anna Bong,
Adeline Ho,
Wendy Ho,
Crystal Lau,
Ida Tan,
Joseph,
Samantha Yong,
Fam Bui Kwong,
Reverend Han,
Pastor Ming Tian,
Pastor Xiang Ping
(one way or other)
........
....
...
..
.
and many many others~!

May God bless you all abundantly~!

Happy Chinese New Year~!

2011-02-11T07:32:00.000-08:00

My maternal cousins: Rabbits on the go~

Reunion dinner: at Da Jiu's House: Lao Yi Sang :)

Day 2: It is during festive seasons (CNY) that do i get the chance to meet up with my cousins :)

Day 4: Catching up with friends is one of my fav~!

Day 4: Visiting teachers during CNY is also a must-do :)

Day 10: My first FGC Tertiary Fellowship: CNY gathering

What more can i ask for? Thanks to friends and family for being part of my life~ May God bless you all a prosperous and blessed Rabbit year ahead~ (^_^)

Full Gospel Church, Johor Bahru

2011-01-22T19:35:00.000-08:00

Full Gospel Church, JB.

Woke up at 7:15am, Efa is already awake and getting ready to send me to church. I'm very touched. Last night, after the depressing 'Ballad of Anggerik' post, i opened my mouth and ask her help to send me; and she nodded happily~ Thank You God, for the wonderful housemates You gave~ (^_^)

Worship.

FGC is one of the biggest church in JB, and it's a stone's throw away from my rented house here in Johor Jaya. The stage is decorated with chinese new year festive theme. I wonder how did yvonne and friends decorated Ka En Methodist Church yesterday. The young girls danced well on stage; how i wish i have dancing bones too~ :)

Dancing and singing; what a beautiful way to glorify our God :)

this is just 1/3 of the hall.

Everyone's concentrating worshiping; i sempat took my hp and capture this scene. Yes, lately, i've been very hardworking in updating my blog and Facebook photos. Simply because, this is my last semester at JB, and i hope these entries and photos will brighten my later working days :) keeping record of my life, too influenced by 'A Moment to Remember' i guess :)

Epim Canteen.

Not sure if i got the name of this canteen correct. Btw, FGC is big; they just launched their 3 storey carpark on 1st January 2011. Praise the Lord~ as more people can come :)

Welcoming New Visitor Corner, free coffee and cheese-sausage-sandwiches.

I've been doing a lot of church hoping; not that i want, but it's because i've to adapt to my surrounding. Most probably i haven't found the right church; but after going to few churches for the past few years, i realized, we all served the same God. And each of the church has their uniqueness. hope to get baptized once i settled down then my children will have a church, with a sense of belonging :)

Bookstore

Guess who i met at church? Lian Dai sister! Such a big church, and she came and sat beside me during worship, her usual seat~ Is this God's arrangement or what? Since i've transport problem to church, i stated my transport needs to the leaders; i signed up for 'undergraduate fellowship' too, it'll be on Friday night, 7-9pm. and they'll arrange transport for me. Hallelujah~ hope to have a good time with the members there :) kinda miss Serdang Chinese Methodist Church, UPM friends. how are you guys?

Door gift in conjunction with CNY.

Apart from the red packets, FGC printed sharing gospel mini booklets too; we can put the booklet in the red packets, and add some money. What a good idea of sharing gospel :) anyone want? RM3 for 2 packets :)

curry rice by the Undergrads

The undergrads fellowship are having fund raising for their missionary trip to Miri end of Feb~! how i wish i can join, it's my home State, SARAWAK~ but it falls on my practicum week. Anyway, hope they raised more than enough fund and achieve their objectives there, while experiencing our Sarawakian local villagers lifestyle.

Today's preaching: 'Will those who are born again, still sin?'

John 3:8 "The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the spirit."

conclusion: "when a man is born again, he has a new self, he is born of God, has God's image, has God's nature, do not sin and cannot sin'.

My Reflection:
Many a times, we do repeat the sin; but as a Christian, (or other religions), we will feel guilty; this guilt serves as a reminder that we shouldn't repeat the sin. For example, if you found a 'miracle' medicine that instantly cure cuts, will you cut yourself on the face repeatedly? This goes same to God. He can cleanse our sins, but that doesn't mean we can/should sin again and again.

Happy Chinese New Year to all readers~ It's RABBIT Year~!

Ballad of Anggerik

2011-01-22T08:30:00.000-08:00

Ballad of Anggerik

BY Ho jia yiing

(On the snatch theft nearby a church in Johor Jaya, Johor Bahru, 2010)

“Darling dear, may I go to church

Instead of staying in at home,

And worship God

As today's Sunday?”

“No, darling, no, you may not go,

For the dogs are fierce and wild,

And knives on motor-bikers,

Aren’t good for a young lady.”

“But, darling, I needed a church,

At this new housing area

And march the streets of Anggerik

To feel the peace surrounding it."

“No, darling, no, you may not go,

For I fear those bikers will harm you.

But you may self study the bible instead

And You-tube for choir or songs.”

--------paraphrased, to be continued-----

Original:

Ballad of Birmingham

BY DUDLEY RANDALL

(On the bombing of a church in Birmingham, Alabama, 1963)

“Mother dear, may I go downtown

Instead of out to play,

And march the streets of Birmingham

In a Freedom March today?”

“No, baby, no, you may not go,

For the dogs are fierce and wild,

And clubs and hoses, guns and jails

Aren’t good for a little child.”

“But, mother, I won’t be alone.

Other children will go with me,

And march the streets of Birmingham

To make our country free.”

“No, baby, no, you may not go,

For I fear those guns will fire.

But you may go to church instead

And sing in the children’s choir.”

She has combed and brushed her night-dark hair,

And bathed rose petal sweet,

And drawn white gloves on her small brown hands,

And white shoes on her feet.

The mother smiled to know her child

Was in the sacred place,

But that smile was the last smile

To come upon her face.

For when she heard the explosion,

Her eyes grew wet and wild.

She raced through the streets of Birmingham

Calling for her child.

She clawed through bits of glass and brick,

Then lifted out a shoe.

“O, here’s the shoe my baby wore,

But, baby, where are you?”

Happiness & Sorrow

2011-01-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

I was about to post a happy blog about our bread-pudding and kite flying experience, until i read few of my friends blog; they were upset. and instantly, the joy in me faded.

Yes, that is how easily affected i am. (for those who matter to me, only) As for those who never care nor know me, sorry.

Talking about friends, i have a few good ones. Some are really God send, like Yvonne Ling. I think i can write a few hundred pages about the memories we shared. Haha. like this moment, though i am chatting on MSN with you, i miss you~ mooshy not? :P

and Ed too. gonna miss this friend once we graduated. you promised to come to sarawak right. dont quiet quiet come, or only inform us on the last day ha. friendly reminder aje. hehe. and sorry bout the dangerous driving yesterday. Felt bad to give you a fright, will only drive when yvonne alone is on board (since she's more faith in me) :P

and Malcolm Tang. perhaps cuz you just commented on my blog. it has been quite some time since we last chat too. quite sad to read your last blog though i can understand your situation. But to me, going to church every Sunday gives me peace. Now i'm staying at Johor Jaya, there's a Full Gospel Assembly nearby; but many says this area is dangerous. and i'm now thinking of carrying a knife with me for the 25minutes walk tomorrow. (scared)

and Sam, Cyn and Hui Yi. These 3 ladies are like their own gang, thanks for allowing yvonne and i to tag along sometimes. Since staying out, i barely get to hang out with you girls. Miss Kong, kindly organize more outings? haha!

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and many more.

especially the ones overseas. how i pray distanced will not bring our friendship apart.

fun outing with my girls at UK FARM last 2 weeks :)

mehhh....baaaa...

kite flying and picnic nearby our house this evening :)

Good night people :)

Anggerik's Batik Cake Recipe

2011-01-19T23:37:00.000-08:00

4 ingredients only!! Milo, condensed milk, marie biscuit & butter cup :)

Step 1: break the marie biscuits in pieces

Step 2: chop and melt the butter

Step 3: melting

Step 4: add in condensed milk, half can.

Step 5: Add in milo. Half packet.

Step 6: Mix in the biscuits.

Step7: mix up!

Step 8: Compressed it with a spoon. Serve after cool down.

Total cost: RM 19 / 2.

conclusion: The fun of staying out, having housemates who are marvelous cooks~! Thanks to Efa and Ziham!

Introducing: Anggerik's Batik Cake. Recipe from Kelantan.

A moment to remember

2011-01-16T05:44:00.000-08:00

A good way to release stress?
Sob hard.

"When the memory is gone, so is the soul". - A moment to remember.

From Johor Bahru to Singapore

2011-01-09T08:45:00.000-08:00

Another 6 hours, i've to wake up from Yvonne's bed. Both she and Diana are sleeping soundly. Why am i still awake? Have i miss home? Kuching or Johor Jaya?

I've had fun slumbering my weekend away here with yvonne. but this is afterall not my place. This brings me to the topic Annie discussed with us at Ang Mo Kio Singapore last night. I am attracted to their high pay salary, especially after conversion. Indeed, many of us Malaysians go to work in Singapore simply because the salary is higher and standard of living there is higher, and safer. I love Singapore, so as i love Taiwan. Both of these countries bring comfort to me, i feel...peaceful.

Reverend Jiang's topic on Motivation for 2011 this morning touched on the security in Malaysia. With the decreasing crime rates announced to the public, are we assured that Malaysia is really getting safer as the days go by? I experienced a live snatched handphone personally 5 years back when i first landed Johor Bahru; days ago, my junior broke the news that her friends' handphone got pick pocketted at JB too. Says you?

and talking about home.

Will we ever feel at-home while staying at other people's territory? Short term vacation and slumber nights will bring fond memories, simply because they are still fresh and new. But, if i were to stay with yvonne sharing one single bed for the coming weeks, will one of us have sleepless nights? if i were to homestay at my Taiwan foster parents house for months or years, will they still be as warm hearted and treated me like their very own daughter? I am not doubting their sincerity. Anyway, this instant, i miss them. how are they doing? do they know their daughters in malaysia still think of them? i wish them well :) and, many have went, is going, will go overseas to work, how many will get a PR and never return home?

and it all boils down to the fact that....

we were all children of God.

Nothing is permanent in this world. eventually, we'll leave this world. i hope to enter heaven, and i believe many will choose the same path too. In conclusion, i am here for a reason. The career He assigned me is to be ----- an educator, not mere teacher who just teach what's in the syllabus but educate the people about life. Wah, now that sounds big!

Wishing my TESLIANS coursemate a happy and blessed final semester ahead! May God bless our friendships and career path ahead.

annie lai, geraldine foo, me & yvonne @ Yigloo, VivoCity Singapore.

"keeping in touch with friends abroad is a blessing, to me~!"

- a smile lit-

From Taiwan to Johor Bahru

2011-01-06T04:56:00.000-08:00

Came back to JB on 3rd January 2011. Efa helped me to shift my stuff from IPGKTI to Anggerik, Johor Jaya. This, will be my nestle for the next 5 months ~

Dusty, Boy and Panda are part of my neighbours. Boy is our watch dog at night (^_^)

My parents helped me when i first moved into MPTI. 5 years later, i moved out, with the help of my friends. The moment i paid for this mattress, i realize i needed to manage my finance well. 'Captivate' struck my mind instantly. should i? haha.

Helped Efa and Gharm at the kitchen this evening. Fell in love with Farah's Tom Yam paste, it's sooOoo GoOD!!

Tada~! The chicken costs RM2 only. haha. well, this is our first home cooked meal at home. Yeah, welcome to our house warming party. Date to be confirmed. (^_^)

After a proper floor mat, a decent study table, my bed and HP netbook..oh ya, i got my Maxis broadband today!! so yeah, life staying out can be good/bad. Depends on how you see it. Some might think, eww,..sleeping on floor~! but after the literature lesson today, should i be grateful and say 'hey, i've got a roof on top of me!" haha.

TO SEE AWORLD IN A GRAIN OF SAND - WILLIAM BLAKE

-To Be Continued-

we are a global village, says Pa (^_^)

2010-12-15T07:20:00.000-08:00

souvenirs from our foster parents. adorable rabbit righto? thanks pa ma :)

my pa and ma in Taiwan. super warm and friendly parents. our blessing :)

my foster sister. adorable righto? sweet 16 :)

tea after sumptious dinner with taiwan beer and whisky. ah..warm n delicious hakka dish!! thanks ma n pa!

my ma. hope to see you soon!

pa shared with us bout the culture of hakka and taiwan. drinking wine is a must during every meal as it is winter now. even during summer, they've to drink beer or the food doesnt taste complete. ma and pa are a lovely couple. their only son, our didi, is doing his health science at taiwan university, year 2, 2 years younger than me. thanks for your hospility, welcome to malaysia pa n ma!! (^_^)

TAIWAN, here I come (^_^)

2010-12-06T16:36:00.000-08:00

T he day has finally
A rrived.
I am excited
W as busy packing till 3am dawn
A nd is still wondering if i missed anything
N othing's gonna stop us girls~
,

H ere I am
E agerly heading to Kuching International Airport
R eady to have breakfast with Ida and family
E ver hoping things will go on smooth.

I am happy!!

C ome, travel mode, come
O ver the rainbows
M erry Christmas to all
E xciting trip this will be
!

Work or Relax?

2010-12-02T05:08:00.000-08:00

PC Fair Sensonic Promoter @ Permata

Just back from Permata, PC Fair starting tomorrow till this Sunday. Spent 3 hours arranging the stock. The above picture is one of the booth MCL is supplying too. I'll be promoting Sensonic accessories while other team members will be doing Logitech. For this first time PC fair working experience, I actually rejected other jobs with higher pay, Yiing yiing..btw, typing with headache now. hope i can get through these 3 days, happily.

Promoter for Legends Car Accessory @ The Hills

The first part time job this holiday. and of the easiest, with highest pay. haha. comments? easy, not challenging and i find it boring as the hours tick by. the only fun part is taking photo with the pretty ladies...and the pay XD

Ribena blackcurrant and strawberry @ Padungan Everise

sorta like Captivate. the trialing specialist job i took while studying at UPM. Good pay (west msia) but standing long hours. to make myself happier, i give away free drinks to the staff and let customers 'win' the choice of lucky draws they want. wakaka. since i've lots of free time standing, i observe ppl. babies attract me the most, then to old folks shopping together, family huhuhaha, married couple holding hands, youngsters energetic always on the go, and little girls and boys eyeing on ribena but don't dare to ask from me, until their parents stood up for them. haha!

Cambrige @ Jln Song. Kiddy 1 & Kiddo class.

of all the few jobs above, this is my favorite! some might think it's tacky, some think boring, but to me, it's - passion. i get to sit, talk,play and see the kids learn. They can be pretty noisy, till the management came in and gave warning, but kids being kids, they'll be quiet awhile, then ... haha. one more thing, some students can be much 'slower' compared to others, and i don't like it when the more brilliant ones bully him. that is when i will pilih kasih, and give the slower ones easier work. hehe. and i remembered one malay student, who scored 100% (with my assistance), he smiled so happily and asked for more tests to do. wah. and when i tell him, today's my last day teaching him, his smile disappeared, askin when will i be back, and that other teachers don't really teach him. i bought him a small gift, and advised him to study hard.

why do i work? it makes me so tired, like now. but when i'm at home for too long, i feel useless and super bored. most prob cuz im the youngest, everyone's off to work, and no ones free to chat with me on msn in the daytime. why not shopping or movies? need money, derh. and when the salary is banked in:

my first STAGE products, using my own hard earned money...(^_^)

before. lunch with pam and julian at Novus Cafe, Brighton Square.

Ray Academy's 'si fu' from KL =)

hair wash, blow and...tada, my new fringe...3 hrs self-pamper (^_^)

Brief idea of our Taiwan Trip

2010-11-29T18:12:00.000-08:00

Tada~! So this is TAIWAN.

Next Wednesday noon, we shall land at TTY (TaoYuan International Airport ).

Need to bring my Punjabi Costume as there's a welcoming party that night at Hotel Today. Won't be expecting a 4/5 starts luxurious hotel, as our main objectives there would not be shopping, but experiencing Hakka culture and staying with host families. Wonder if i'd learnt to order my favourite Lei Cha in Hakka when i'm home. (^_^)

On the 5th day, we'll be visiting Peipu Hakka Village, staying at Land of Mystery Forest Resort Village. Honestly, the names of the hotels sounds close to nature =) Sadly, hot springs are not included in our schedule, but as I googled, this photo is shown at Peipu Township:

TAadda~ Seems like Lundu waterfall to me. haha! but it would be winter when we are there, so im wondering if the hotsprings are really warm. So, organizers, can we go? Perhaps i should include hot springs visit in my email to my host family =P

Day 8: Homestay at Miaoli. Wonder how'd my 'family' there be like :) We're going to cycle around this village~~! Still remember my childhood times with Pam, cycling full force from the main road down the small hill, handsfree, no breaks, syok~...and landed in the longkang! haha.

Hualien: Taroko National Park.

Nice?? This is Hualien. We'll be taking the train from Taoyuan to Hualien on the 10th Day.

We'll experience the Natural Ecology at this Chishingtan beach @ Miaoli in the afternoon. Hopefully the weather is this good then! *smiling*

Shihling Night Market.

Yang Ming Shan National Park

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fast forward to the second last day:

May God bless this trip!! (^_^)

Thanks Giving :)

2010-11-25T09:03:00.001-08:00

learnt from facebook that it's Thanks Giving today. Will just list down the ten things that i'm grateful of here as memory :)

1. My loving parents. They supported us financially, physically and emotionally. I must be an obedient daughter after i'm married :)

2. My siblings. Though sis is not staying with us anymore, and i really missed our pillow talk. Going to spend a happy day with her and brother in law tomorrow. Brother sprained his knee yesterday, hope he'll recover asap. Love lots!

3. Andrew. Thank you Lord :)

4. My close friends. Yvonne, pamela, ying ying, josephine, alice, huey, so many.. Thank you all :)

5. Going to Taiwan next Tuesday! Finally! After the big Aiesec disappointment last semester, i'm so touched that i'm being selected to go for this hakka trip, going with Pam and Kim somemore! Hope it's gonna be loads of fun and memorable experience!

6. Working opportunities. I love money. I hate boredom. I love travelling. Who doesn't? And, i find passion in teaching. i'm so grateful to have classes to teach this hols. With family's subsidy and these part time jobs, i think it'll be sufficient for the upcoming trip :)

7. Safety on the road. I confess i'm not a superb driver. And i'm extremely stressed when it's my turn to ferry juniors to church. But Thank God for the safe trips :)

8. Staying out next semester. Most likely, i'll be staying out with my practicum partner next semester. Gotta be more independent and tolerance and understanding are needed :)

9. My comforter. Ah, u made me warm tonight. Thanks! :)

10. N78 and wifi. Be good, and stay on with me for long ya.. :) sweet dreams all :)

The wonder of English (@_@)

2010-11-18T17:17:00.001-08:00

Let's face it -- English is a crazy language!

There's no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple.

English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.

We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square, and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, two geese. So one moose, two meese? One index, two indices?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend, that you comb through the annals of history but not a single annal? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? If you wrote a letter, perhaps you bote your tongue?

Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while quite a lot and quite a few are alike? How can the weather be hot as hell one day and cold as hell another?

Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are absent? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a sung hero or experienced requited love?

Have you ever run into someone who was discombobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable? And where are all those people who ARE spring chickens or who would ACTUALLY hurt a fly?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling out and in which an alarm clock goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn't a race at all).

That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I end it!

(This essay has been attributed to Richard Lederer.)

Language Tests in Malaysia

2010-10-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

The major English Language tests in Malaysia are those taken durnig the Primary School Assessment Examination (Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah or UPSR), the Lower Secondary Assessment (Penilaian Menengah Rendah or PMR), the Malaysian Certificate of Education (Sijil Peperiksaan Malaysia or SPM) and the Malaysian Universities English Test or MUET which are generally national level standardized forms of assessment. The first three examinations are developed by the Malaysian Examination Syndicate, a body directly under the Malaysian Ministry of Education while the MUET is developed by the Malaysian Education Council, a statutory body under the same ministry. These four tests can also be considered high-stakes examinations because many important decisions that affect the students' education and later career path are made on the basis of the performance of these examinations.

It is interesting to note that there have been several shifts in the policy in recent years with respect to language tests in Malaysia. The most notable has arguably been the development and use of the Malaysian Universities English Test or MUET which was introduced in 1999. Although this test measures four skills in the English language, the greatest impact has been on the testing of speaking skills. Because it is closely linked to tertiary education and entrance into local institutions of higher learning, candidates taking the MUET are smaller in number compared to the nationwide standardized examinations that all school-going children sit for. The fewer number of candidates allows for a relatively longer and more intensive test of spoken English ability.

Another development in testing in Malaysia has been the introduction of school based tests. These tests, which emphasise the assessment of speaking ability, have many implications iin teaching and learning of the English language. The objectives of the secondary school Forms 4 and 5 school based oral exams and the SPM Oral English Test, are to assess the candidates' ability to:

1. converse on a topic,
2. speak fluently,
3. speak coherently,
4. give appropriate response,
5. speak using language appropriately within context,
6. speak using correct and acceptable pronunciation,
7. speak using correct grammar, and
8. speak using a wide range of appropriate vocabulary.

It can be anticipated that the washback effects of these tests will promote the teaching and learning of aural-oral skills in the classroom. At both the primary and secondary school levels,, the schools based oral examinations require studentsto perform oral tasks in various configurations or models. These models vary according to the task the student has to perform, the interlocutors involved,and the role of the teacher-examiner.

The two developments in English language tests in Malaysia described above are positive trends that can lead to improved teaching practice in the classroom. Several other aspects that have been introduced together with the school based exas and the MUET have also contributed to the validity of the tests. In the MUET, for example, score reporting is vastly improved over the SPM English language oral test. Candidates are provided feedback interms of how they performed in four different skills. In contrast to this, candidates of the SPM English test are only provided with a single grade although the test assesses their ability in different skills.

School based examinations also tend to be formative and hence are more beneficial to the learning process than the summative type, end of the year exams. However, when school based examinations contribute to the final grade of such high stakes examinations as in Malaysia, a great deal of professionalism among teachers is required. Because of pressure to perform, teachers may be tempted to inflate scores of their own students. Other teachers may fail to appreciate the value of school based examinations and not conduct the examinations carefully. School based examinations require additional commitment from teachers as they need to manage the examinations in their schools. Although school based examinations may pose some problems in the early stages, these problems may be resolved with time, proper training and increased familiarity.

-Essentials of Language Testing for Malaysian Teachers by Arshad Abd. Samad-

Bibliotheraphy - Text as the Key to the Soul

2010-10-25T07:12:00.000-07:00

BIBLIOTHERAPHY

Rublin 1993:331 mentions that bibliotheraphy is considered "reading guidance given by teachers and librarians to help students with their personal problems.

It is defined as “the use of books to help individuals to cope better with their problems.”

In bibliotheraphy, students are encouraged to find answers in a positive, intellectual and logical ways.

Literature texts in all genres are used to help these students to understand themselves better. This understanding is essential for mental and physical health and fulfilment.

If fiction is able to reflect for the reader his complicated and sometimes shameful feelings, he feels less alone. He is, as if were, given permission to think and to feel those things that he has considered unacceptable.” (Gillies, 1988)

The selected literature texts will enable the students to see that there are many solutions to their problems. Bibliotheraphy presents facts that the students need to solve/face their problems. It creates an outlet for the students to channel their emotional and behavioural problems and come out with solutions.

It encourages the students to plan pratical course of action and carry it out. As the result they can confront their problems effectively. There are four activities related to bibliotheraphy:

1. Group discussion on the characters of the text.
2. Watching films
3. Simulation and role playing
4. Writing about experiences

Topics:
1. Anxiety and anger
2. Dealing with loss
3. Experiences related to death
4. Dealing with love

Students need to be exposed to positive ways in dealing with human issues such as:
1. Tragedy
2. Happiness
3. Hate
4. Love
5. Conflicts

Literary texts can withstand the test of time and culture.

Shakespearean plays often changed to suit the society in the 15th century. However, the plays are still relevant until today for their universal values in the rise and fall of the heroes and villains. The moral, political, social issues also make the play relevant today.

Nowadays, the focus is less on the deeds of heroes and villains but rather the psychoanalytic and dialectic perspectives. Human experiences and human conditions are touched, shared and imparted from the teacher to the students and vice versa.

Literature proves the best opportunity to see and feel how the English language is used to describe and to tell the experience within culture and traditions of the people using it. Simmons and Deluzai (1991) suggest four important psychological implications that a literature teacher should consider:

1. Empathy
 correlative experience deals with background knowledge that the students have in relation to the content of the materials read. As they read, readers ask themselves how happenings in their lives can be related to what is happening in the text.

2. Verisimilitude
 young adults have different perception of reality from children and adult. The theme of self definition and initiation to adulthood are good for teenagers.

3. Suspension
 a teacher needs to take into consideration on how willing are the students to believe what is not real.

4. Symbolism
 Critical reading skills are important so that the students are aware of the possible relationship of literary symbols with the fundamental human experience. Adolescents have limited human experiences. Therefore, the texts and the teacher need adapt to this limitation.

Bibliotheraphy can be used for a variety of reasons to help children overcome problems or situations they are facing or may face. Children have many needs that should be addressed to help them develop a positive self-concept. Physiological needs are the most basic needs that must be met.

Children also must feel safe, loved, and the need to belong in a group (family, school, peer or other)

If these needs are met through the use of bibliotheraphy, the child will be able to accomplish the following:

1. Develop a more positive sense of themselves.
2. Learn about the world
3. Cope with stress
4. Provide insight into problems
5. Affirm thoughts and feelings
6. Stimulate discussions about problems,
7. Create an awareness of others that have similar problems
8. Provide solutions to problems
9. Communicate new values and attitudes
10. Find meaning in life

These are all goals that a facilitator would like to accomplish when implementating bibliotheraphy (Comett et. Al, 1980; Alex, 2006; Jackson & Nelson, 2002-04)

TASKS:
Select a short story, poem and a novel that can help students deal with:
1. School bully
2. Heart break
3. Nasty teacher
4. First crush

Create a simple activity for each selected text. The teaching aids must be in the form of high and low tech.

-B.Ed TESL cohort 4,UPM-IPG KTI (2010)

No longer proud.

2010-10-25T03:28:00.000-07:00

http://www.malaysiakini.com/opinions/41813

A bible in front of me
"Essentials of Language Testing for Malaysian Teachers" on my left
Notes on "Focus on ELT Materials" on my right
"Injustice - corrupted Malaysian policemen" on my mind

Am I even 'safe' to post out my current thoughts
Will the higher authority barged in
and handcuffed me though i am innocent?

I don't understand
Why are there so many serious crimes out there unsolved
yet the policemen can find pleasure in being a sadist?

This is only one of the few incidents I read
what about the others?
How many out there are suffering and being discriminated?
Why are there no actions taken in curbing the issue?

Suddenly
I don't feel proud at all being a Malaysian
I even feel my profession of being a teacher is not all that noble
For these policemen had had their teachers too
Have those teachers not taught them how to be a human?

- Sad, down, disappointed, demotivated -

2010-10-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

Finals are just two days away.
But that didn't stop me from doing the things I like:
1. helping out as instructors at SDRARY English Language Camp 2010
2. communicating with my darling 1-2 hours a day
3. sleeping and sleeping
4. finally, having a kapal-berstim with my girls~

1. SDARY - SMK Dato' Abdul Rahman Yassin, Johor Bahru

This 2 days camp gives me the golden opportunity to:
a) have a glimpse of how active 15years old are.
b) the songs they are interested in: Justin Bieber's 'Baby'
c) be amazed by how the principal presented 'English can be Fun' ppp.
d) reminisce my school days PBSM/ Chinese Club/ Prefect days
e) have a good time with my coursemates in making this camp a success

2. Communication breaks barrier.

Distance relationship is never easy, for me, and I believe, for many out there. Not to be discourage, as there are equally successes and failures in both distance and daily-cuddling relationships. Though my lecturer advised us to have more than 1 boyfriend as back up plan, I find it rather impossible, as first, the trust will no longer be there. Secondly, how can one split her life/time to satisfy both men?

3. 8 hours of beauty sleep (^_^)

This activity just makes me happier and feels more alive each time I open my eyes. Ah... Thank God for quality nap/beautiful sweet dreams (^_^)

4. Fun activities at the midst of exam-battle

1. Bowling - Gambling is prohibited in all religion, but betting a cup of Mc Flurry can make the game all more motivating and fun. Not? :P

2. Kapal Berstim - Shop, Cut, Boil, Mix, Dip, Dish out + Laughter and sharing.

That's all folks, happy revising~ All the best in your exams, coursemates. Happy holidays to those post PMR students and post-exams friends. Happy working to all nation-builders, in a way. GBU (^_^)

Grace, Faith, Hope (^_^)

2010-10-05T02:48:00.000-07:00

Grace.

You graced me with faith which produced hope,
and I am truly putting high hopes on it.
Will it happen?
Am i that lucky?
Please, let this little dream come true..
These are the excitement I have, now.

Dad told me when i was young,
never to put too high a hope,
or when it didnt come true,
i'll be truly devasted.
He don't want to see his princess hurt,
For that, I love you daddy!

I've come to learn
to submit everything to His will.
He gives,
and He can take.
But I rememebered Pastor Kenneth's preaching
He will only give the BEST for us
not the good, or second
but the BEST.

Indeed,
in our lives,
we have had disappointments
but when we look at the larger picture,
Things just got better,
aren't they?
It did happen to me,
It does,
and It WILL continue to be :)

May we learn to have Faith,
knowing that He is always there with us
from the little things like being selected for XXX,
to bigger things like careers and family.

-Hopeful & Counting the Grace-
Silverin Yiing (^_^)

May barriers be shaken and tumbled down.

2010-09-30T18:31:00.000-07:00

Today is the last day of my school based experience at SMK Sultanah Engku Tun Aminah. Time flies. I've to write reflections and sum up my portfolio. But here i am, typing out what's on my mind but not on microsoft words for some things are not meant to be printed out for supervision. anyway, the lesson i learnt throughout this week would be that every is a unique creation of God.

We might have negative perception of someone. and our reactions towards that one particular incident or that person might be 'unsightful'. what i'm trying to say, if we think we can have the right to be angry, sad, happy or grateful of someone; then ohter person, do have the authority to hurt, despise, enjoy or feel annoyed of your presence. i don't know you get what im trying to express here, the simple key falls back to that we have our own perception. i might think your idea is not good, as u might think mine is irresponsible. i might think u are being pessimistic, as u might think i have an attitude problem. but whatever thinking or different perception each of us have, we should respect each other's opinion and by all means, not hurting each other's feelings. yes, when it comes to females, especially pms, emotions play a big role in determining what is being said.

For that, i would like to pray that all barriers will be shacken n tumbled down; where fresh roses, sunflowers and water lilies will grow up healthy and radiant under the basking sunlight of yet another wonderful creation of our Almighty God.

Peace be with you all (^_^)

Vote, why wait?

2010-09-24T01:11:00.000-07:00

Volunteering at Tebrau City, August 2010 (^_^)

Ho Jia Yiing (144487)
B.Ed TESL 1 (Cohort 4)
Persuasive Speech: Vote, why wait?

"The Government is useless, there is nothing they can do to make our lives better, the rising prices, the unemployment, the escalating crime rate…they have no answers", said Mike. "Well, if you are really concerned about all these things, you should have voted Mikey!", said John. "May be a better candidate would have won, and may be he would have taken some effective measures for improvement…Unless you vote you just can’t blame the government, because you have failed your duties!"

Good morning Ladies and Gentlemen,

Welcome to our Registration for Voting Booth at Tebrau City. I hope you can spare 3-minutes off your shopping time to listen and be persuaded to register for your right to vote. Have you registered? Yes? Thank you, you do us proud! Kindly invite your friends and family who have yet to register to drop by our booth as we are students who volunteer part time to assist in this campaign only for today. Not yet register? Good, you are at the right place at the right time and are going to do the right thing!

This registration will only take 3 minutes. Please give the volunteers your I.C. and they will pass it to the SRP officers over there for on-the-spot registration. Thank you. For those who are still hesitant, do make your decision after you listen to my brief sharing on why we, as citizens of Malaysia should vote.

Ladies and gentlemen,

Voting connects citizens with their political process. It helps choose our leaders, especially leaders who share our views or those who may inspire us. This registration campaign is not held by any specific parties but volunteers. Our aim is simple: To tell the public that the simple act of marking a ballot tells our leaders what we think about decisions that affect our lives. An example would be how much taxation we think is fair or what issues, such as health care or the environment, we think are most important for our beloved Malaysia, and our future generation.

Also, voting connects us to one another as citizens. By taking part in an election and by expressing our point of view, we help our democracy work. By agreeing or disagreeing with our leaders who show that the political system can accept differing points of views and can resolve them.

If you still are not convinced, let me assure you that voting helps to safeguard our freedoms. A democratic community can only survive if its citizens see participation in the political process as a duty and a responsibility. By voting, each citizen participates in a process that might lead to other forms of involvement, such as working for a political party or even running for election.

My respected Malaysians,

If you are one of those people who still think that voting is a waste of time and keep on complaining about how the government is a complete failure; then, this is the right time you realize the importance of voting, and do your bit towards enhancing the government functioning!

Voting ensures that your opinions are taken into account while appointing the person who holds the reins of power. People who are elected have the power to formulate educational policies which are instrumental in shaping the future of children and hence the future of the nation itself. Yes, the future of our children and the nation is in your hands!

Health care, highways, jobs, taxes or even food, the elected representatives have the power to take decisions over some of the most vital issues in our life! So would you be comfortable in letting ‘just anybody’ take over these powers, without exercising your right to vote? Voting, Voting is one of the fundamental processes, which is instrumental in the development of a healthy democracy.

Our next election is approaching, though the exact dates are yet to be announced, try to think of the people who are living under tyrannical dictatorships or are under curfews and cannot exercise their right to opinion. Your right to vote is your right to expression and opinion. DO NOT take your right for granted. Try and appreciate the power of voting by exercising it now!

Ladies and gentlemen,

I hope you are now convinced to take the simple and vital step to register for voting rights today, now, this instant. Thank you for your time and support. Feel free to drop by our booth if you have further enquiries. May God bless our nation!

Love is Forgiving (^_^)

2010-08-08T03:09:00.000-07:00

XXX: I don't understand why you made such decision!(forgiving)

A: It's LOVE~

With the strings of painful (literally and emotianally) events, I've really got to learn from all these. Today, Pastor Kung from China, preached about "What if he's Jesus?" - Matthew 25:31-40

It's basically about those who feed the hungry, shelter the homeless, quench the thirst will be rewarded the right seating. We'll not know what form Jesus will come in, is He the beggar or our discipline teacher? In short, her message is 'Just Do Good'. HE's watching from above, each and every action of ours will be known; especially those little things you did when you are alone.

I find this sermon connects perfectly with the fellowship session conducted by Mei Shan sis. She shared about the story of Jonah. God asked Jonah to share the gospel at the fallen NiNiland, but being disobedient but a faithful servant, he backed away; got into a ship; wrecked; volunteered to be thrown over the ship as God is causing the storm signalling him to go to NiNiland. He was alive despite being in the whale's tummy for 3 days. (Suggested to do further reading of the story at Jonah's book if interested)

Lesson learnt: Seek forgiveness.

Everyone knows the truth that forgiving can bring joy and salvage relationships; but how many of us can actually do that? Last week, I was advised by few friends that to salvage a relationship, we must 'Lay down your pride, and ask for forgiveness' He did, I did; relationship salvaged~ (^_^) He's egocentric, I'm stubborn; doomed relationship. As simple as that?

Thank you to all who's helped/hurt, consoled/cursed, loved/hated, forgiven/grudged against me, I choose to move on
Conclusion: God makes us miserable through conviction to make us joyful through confession.

Interpreting Dreams :)

2010-08-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

Do you still dream? And if you do, do you remember your dream? These two days, i've been taking afternoon naps; setting alarm for a 45minx max nap but always ended at 5:45pm, (extra 2 hrs) when chinese uncle is bout to send dinner. anyway, today i remember my dream and i recall my secondary English teacher taught us bout dream; that we should write down our dream if we recalled immediately or we'll forget very soon. I just remember a fragment of it. This is how it goes:

I was walking back from my primary school SRB Chung Hua No:1. The old ice-cream uncle who always brings cheers to children is now replaced by a young adult lady. sadly,she didnt sell the bun icecream i remembered i ordered. so i left the busstop, heading home(i've been walking home after school since my Tadika Sri Keria, Chung Hua No:1 and SMK Kuching High). anyway, as i was walking past the row of houses besides the busstop, i took out my old faithful nokia 6200 and threw it into a house garden,i forgot if i did aim at the duck. yes, i remembered the white coloured duck with yellow beaks; like the ones we draw when we were young. Soon after that throw, suddenly the sunny day glooms. i remember pacing up. as usual, we have to cross the road at the 'big tree' into my house's junction.

but someone, who i didnt realize was accompanyin throughout my walk, overshoot. she's yvonne. (in case u r reading,don't laugh; u've appeared in my dreams, like other friends) but this time, it's only Yvonne, but she overshot, heading straight to civic centre direction, leaving me behind. i have crossed the road when i realized. so i took out my other nokia n78 (lucky i didnt throw this)n called her; she answered, turned back, laughed at herself and crossed the road. we walked home. i remembered the instant i reached home, it started to rain; a very heavy rainpour. watching the sky changes and big droplets coming down, i can't remember what was i thinking that time. i think i remembered dreaming bout my brother. that's when i woke up.

TATA. Msg sis bout this dream n googled up some keypoints. Let's see the interpretation:

Cell Phone
To see or use a cell phone in your dream, indicates that you are being receptive to new information. It also represents your mobility. Alternatively, the dream signifies lack of understanding. Perhaps you are having difficulties getting through to someone.

To dream that you lost your cell phone, represents a lack of communication. You have lost touch with some aspect of your feelings or your Self.�If you find a cell phone, then it symbolizes reconnection and reopened communication.

Personal reflection:
Now i remembered what was i thinking while watching the rainpour. i was thinking of rushing out back to my phone, i want it back; it was a sudden irrational act to throw it away. but in my dream, i didnt go out of my comfort zone,cuz the rain was too heavy and i assumed my phone would be soaked by rain water and definitely spoilt. and yes, recently i've faced some serious communication break down. exactly 7days ago till today.

Rain
To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

To dream that you are watching the rain from a window, indicates that spiritual ideas and insights are being brought to your awareness. It may also symbolize fortune and love.

To hear rain tapping on the roof, denotes spiritual ideas coming to fruition in your mind.

Personal Reflection:
i need forgiveness now, from a lot of ppl whom i've hurt and caused them to worry. thankfully, time heals n now they no longer call/msg to 'check up'; it is a blessing to have friends esp when one is in need of a shoulder; n in my case, shoulderS :P yes, i've been doubtin bout my SQ last week, thankfully it's not long for Him to hold back my hands :P

Duck
To see ducks in your dream, represent your spiritual freedom (if flying) or the unconscious (if swimming).�They serve as a connection between the spiritual realm and the physical world. Ducks are multi-talented animals in that they can walk, swim and fly. Thus, a duck indicates your flexibility and your ability to blend and adapt in various situations. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are setting yourself up or being set up for the kill as associated by the phrase "sitting duck". Are you being targeted? Also, the duck may be a pun on "ducking" some issue or situation, instead of confronting it head-on. Consider the phrase, "if it looks like a duck, walks like a duck, quacks like a duck, it's a duck". Some things are too obvious to deny.

To see a white duck in your dream, signifies falsehood and deceit.

To see a two-headed duck in your dream, suggests that you need to be more grounded. You need to thoroughly think through some emotional issue.

Ice Cream
To see or eat ice cream in your dream, denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.

To dream that you are eating bad or sour ice cream, signifies sorrow, disillusionment, or betrayal.

To see ice cream melt in your dream, symbolizes failure to realize your hopes and desires.

Personal Reflection:
Great! i didn't get to eat the ice cream, meaning i didnt get to enjoy "good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life" Luckily, i didnt get to eat sour icecream nor did it melt, yahoo~ :P

Friend
To see friends in your dream, signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend, indicates positive news.

Girlfriend
To see your girlfriend in your dream, represents your waking relationship with her and how you feel about her.

Reflection:
Lolx, i don't know if this girl-friend or if a guy googled bout his special gf. anyway, i'm glad u turned back :)

Road
To see a road in your dream, refers to your sense of direction and how you are pursuing your goals. If the road is winding, curvy, or bumpy in your dream, then it suggests that you will encounter many obstacles and setbacks toward achieving your goals. You may be met with unexpected difficulties. If the road is dark, then it reflects the controversial or more frightening choices which you have made or are making.�

If the road is smooth and bordered by trees or flowers, then it denotes a steady progress and steady climb up the social ladder. If the road is straight and narrow, then it means that your path to success is going as planned.

To see an unknown road in your dream, represents a path that has not been ventured. You are setting a new precedence for something.

To dream that a threatening creature is on a road, parallels a hostile situation/person you are encountering in your waking life. It is an obstacle that you need to overcome, no matter how intimidating the situation or person may appear.

Reflection:
Geez, shouldnt i be glad that i dreams of the straight road heading home? Humming "I'm going home, to the place where i belong..." not heaven, i don't wanna die just yet; age 8+, after i witness my grandchilDREN's weddding, n mayb SOME great grandchildren, p/s before my husband. :P

Lose
To dream that you lose something, indicates that you may really have misplaced something that you had not realized yet. It may also be a signal for you to clean out and reorganize your life. Perhaps you are overwhelmed and distracted with the hustle and bustle of day-to-day life.�Alternatively, losing something often coincides with a significant life change or waking issue.

On a symbolic note, losing things in your dream suggests lost opportunities, past relationships or forgotten aspects of yourself. Your personal associations to the thing you lose will clue you into the emotional meaning and interpretation of your dream.

Reflection:
I remember my troubled look after i threw the phone away...how can one be so silly to throw a possession which has bring much comfort for the past 6 yrs?? gee, the nokia 6200 is the first thing/phone i bought after my first salary working as a part time tutor after spm :) the first thing i woke up is to reached out to check if the bejeweled her is still safely within my reach; AMen, it is; she got a cuddle from her master :)

Conclusion:
Another long dwindling post without photos (wifi bad,failed to upload) anyway, since i've interpreted my dreams, n somehow 80% of what i should do n whr to focus, the question is: do i hv the courage? Peace be with you all, n me :P

The Disadvantages of Being a Christian

2010-07-28T22:28:00.000-07:00

For the past 5 years, i have been introduced, participated and believing in God; just as simple and naive as how a child would follow what is said to be good. There are times, many times when i wanted to accept Christ openly by saying the Lord's Acceptance Prayer; but not only until yesterday after Andrew gave his last sms, quote:

"FOOTPRINTS.. That's my poem for you... ... If I can, I would do what Jesus do.. But I believe he is more suitbale to carry by the beach.. I would be the one watching from the side.. Being there for you even if I am not the person carrying you..."

I was touched to tears, and have a deep sleep which led me to a dream which i will not disclose here.

The dreamt seemed to woke me up from my reality, ironic as it may sound or is it the post Inception effect; instead of feelig light cuz Jesus is carrying me, i felt burdened and my heart is gasping for air. Then i got the news that 2 friends who were so passionately active in Church decided to quit church. Be it i'm easily influenced or is it a wake up call; I have the urge to unchain the cross necklace as suddenly it felt SO SO HEAVY.

The resposibilities of being a christian,the commandments to abide, the promises,the words; all of those which i previously are proud of to share with others and serve as my life guide, seems 'not healthy' to my soul. It's evil, it shed and ripped my emotions and heart apart. Even the physical bruise and cut i got yesterday felt nothing compared the disappointment and emptiness im enduring.

Therefore, i googled this:

III-2. THE DISADVANTAGES OF BEING A CHRISTIAN(John 15:19; 16:2,4).

We talk about the joys of salvation. We talk about the blessings of discipleship. We talk about the advantages of being a Christian. There is another side to this, however, and to be absolutely honest, we must present it. There are limitations in salvation. There are demands in discipleship. There are disadvantages in being a Christian.

This may sound like a sacrilegious paradox, but it's not! Christ, himself, emphasized the requirements more than he did the benefits. He said devotion costs. "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up His cross and follow me" (Mark 8:34).

As Christians, we have to be better than average. As Christians, we must outlive the ordinary person. As Christians, we can't just continue doing what feels good. As Christians, we've moved beyond the natural realm. We're in the "spiritual" realm and thus more is expected of us. Jesus said, "From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked" (Luke 12:48b, NIV).

So, what are the disadvantages of being a Christian?

I. FIRST, SELFISHNESS IS OUT.

You see, it's "natural" to be selfish, but as Christians, we no longer have that option. Jesus said, "I seek not to please myself but him who sent me" (John 5:30).

Looking out for "Number One" may be human nature. Self-preservation may be based on instinct. Nevertheless, as Christians we must have higher ideals. John said, "Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers" (I John 3:16).

1. We can't be egotistical. Paul said, "Now we who are strong ought to bear the weaknesses of those without strength and not just please ourselves" (Rom. 15:1).

2. We can't be insensitive. John said, "But whoever has the world's goods, and beholds his brother in need and closes his heart against him, how does the love of God abide in him?" (I John 3:17).

3. We can't be unconcerned. Paul said, "Do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others" (Phil. 2:4).

4. We can't be greedy. Paul said, "Let no one seek his own good, but that of his neighbor" (I Cor. 10:24).

5. We can't be envious. Paul said, "Love is . . . not jealous . . ." (I Cor. 13:4).

6. We can't be self-righteous. John said, "If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves, and the truth is not in us . . ." (I John 1:8).

7. We can't always be popular. Jesus said, "Woe to you when all men speak well of you, for in the same way their fathers used to treat the false prophets" (Luke 6:26).

So you see, as Christians we can't choose our occupations by income alone. We can't vote our pocketbooks. We can't feather our own nests at the expense of others. Selfishness is out. That's one of the disadvantages of being a Christian.

II. SECOND, DEFENSIVENESS IS OUT.

Now, it's "natural" to be defensive, but as Christians we no longer have that option. Jesus said, "Do not resist him who is evil; but whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn to him the other also" (Matt. 5:39).

Paul said, "See that no one repays another with evil for evil . . ." (I Thess
. 5:15).

Being reactionary is sinful. Some people are unbelievably touchy. They're like the rhinoceros. They say this belligerent animal can smell and hear quite well, but it can't see clearly. Therefore it takes no chances and immediately charges anything that comes near, be it human, animal or tank. Some people are like that.

The porcupine is another defensive animal. It has needle sharp quills and it uses them. It may be true that the porcupine is never kicked, but then again, it's never hugged either!

Yes, it's "natural" to be defensive. Lashing out and hitting back may be automatic responses. Protecting ourselves and blaming others may be normal behavior. Nevertheless, as Christians, we must be different:

1. We can't be negative. Paul said, "Whatever is true . . . whatever is of good repute . . . let your mind dwell on these things" (Phil. 4:8).

2. We can't be critical. "Malign no one . . . be uncontentious, gentle . . ." (Titus 3:2).

If you were given a dollar for every kind word, and charged a dollar for every critical word, would you be rich or poor? Think about it!

3. We can't gossip. "Do not speak against one another . . ." (James 4:11).

4. We can't be judgmental. "Do not judge lest you be judged" (Matt. 7:1).

None of us are qualified to judge. Only God knows all the circumstances.

5. We can't hate. "But I say to you, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you" (Matt. 5:44).

6. We can't retaliate. "Let all be harmonious, sympathetic, brotherly, kindhearted, and humble in spirit" (I Peter 3:8-9).

7. We can't get even. "Never pay back evil for evil to anyone" (Rom. 12:17).

You've heard, "Don't get mad, get even!" Well that's impossible and totally unproductive. An eye for an eye doesn't restore sight. It simply blinds two men. Revenge never makes things better. It always makes things worse.

We can't justify our actions by saying, "Well, he had it coming." We must operate by the principle of mercy.

A native accompanied a missionary on a trip, but he totally refused to accept the Gospel. On the way, they had car trouble and tried frantically to wave down a passing truck, but to no avail. Finally, the missionary got the car started, and they had not gone far when they came upon the stalled truck with the two men who had failed to help them. The native was ecstatic, "Now, we can pay those fellows back. They passed us up and we'll pass them up." "Oh, no," the missionary said. "We must stop and help them."

After they had given aid and were on their way again, the native said to the missionary, "Sir, I begin to understand. Your Gospel is about a Christ who came to help not just his friends, but his enemies."

Yes, forgiveness is required. Defensiveness is out. That's another disadvantage of being a Christian.

III. THIRD, MEDIOCRITY IS OUT.

It's "natural" to be mediocre; but as Christians we no longer have that option. Paul said, "Be devoted . . . not lagging behind in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord" (Rom. 12:10-11).

John said, "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot; . . . I will (spew) you out of My mouth" (Rev. 3:15, 16).

Being only fair or "so-so" is sinful. Once, some of Teddy Roosevelt's supporters called him a great, extra-ordinary man. He objected, "Oh, no! I'm not a great extra-ordinary man. I'm just a plain, ordinary man, highly motivated."

Yes, it's natural to be mediocre. Inertia is a principle of the physical world. Even water runs downhill. Laziness is a constant temptation of mankind. Nevertheless, as Christians we must overcome these tendencies.

1. We can't be complacent. "Whoever does not carry his own cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple" (Luke 14:27).

2. We can't be half-hearted. "No servant can serve two masters; . . . he will hate the one, and love the other . . ." (Luke 16:13).

3. We can't be apathetic. Paul said, "Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men" (Col. 3:23).

We can't just look the other way.

4. We can't be uninvolved. Paul said, "For we are God's fellow workers . . ." (I Cor. 3:9).
5. We can't, just go along. Paul said, "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind . . ." (Rom. 12:2).

6. We can't be careless. John said, "The one who says, `I have come to know Him,' and does not keep His commandments, is a liar . . ." (I John 2:4).

7. We can't be unethical. John said, "Anyone who . . . does not abide in the teaching of Christ, does not have God" (II John 9).

So, you see, as Christians, we can't be clock watchers. We can't give the least effort for the most returns. The needs are great. Excellence is in. Mediocrity is out. That's another disadvantage of being a Christian.

Yes, indeed, being a Christian can really put a cramp in your style. Jesus said, "But I say to you . . . love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If you just love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. But love your enemies, and do good . . . and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High; for He Himself is kind to ungrateful and evil men. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful. And do not judge and you will not be judged; and do not condemn, and you will not be condemned; pardon, and you will be pardoned" (Luke 6:27-37).

We constantly emphasize the blessings of salivation and the rewards of discipleship; but in fact, Jesus actually emphasized the opposite. He never promised the proverbial "Rose Garden." Instead, he warned of hardships and obligations. He was honest about the disadvantages of being a Christian. Listen: "If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you." "They will put you out of the synagogue; in fact, a time is coming when anyone who kills you will think he is offering a service to God. I have told you this, so that when the time comes you will remember that I warned you . . ." (John 15:19, and 16:2,4).

There is no "easy believism." Jesus said, "Not everyone who says to me, `Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven" (Matt. 7:21).

God expects great things of us. We have enormous responsibilities. We are here for a purpose. Paul said, "Do you not know that . . . you are not your own? . . . therefore glorify God . . ." (I Cor. 6:19-20).

A Japanese missionary was going home one night when he saw a would-be-suicide climb up on a bridge and jump into the river. The missionary dived in, dragged him out, took him home, nursed him back to health, fed him and found him a job.

Then, he said, "You can stay here or you can live elsewhere; but remember this, from now on your life no longer belongs to you. I saved it, so it belongs to me. Therefore, you must report to me regularly on what you've been doing with `my life.' " Surprisingly, the man made good. He became a successful professional. Years later, he finally got up the courage to ask his benefactor a question. "I know you saved me from death and helped me tremendously; but where did you get the notion that my life no longer belongs to me?" "That's not a notion," the Japanese missionary replied. "That's the truth. In fact, my life doesn't really belong to me. It was given to me by God and I must stand before him and tell him what I've done with it!" Paul said, "He died for all, that they who live should no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf" (II Cor. 5:15).

So, what are you doing with the life God has given you? Are you using all of your time, talents, energy and opportunities in His service?
(WC1988)
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2010-07-27T03:54:00.000-07:00

This entry is dedicated to the man i hurt and to myself:

Relationship Advice: 10 Ways to Survive a Break Up
Breaking up is always painful. Here are some suggestions to help you get through it.

Enlarge ImageBreak ups are never easy. You are a bundle of jealous, hurt, angry, resentful emotions. Your mood can swing from depression to bitter anger. The only thing you seem to think about is what went wrong, can I get him/her back or I’ll show him/her. The main theme in your life is ‘How can I feel better right NOW?’ Here are some suggestions that I hope will help.

1.Friends and Family. I know this may seem obvious but lean on your friends and family. Spend time doing things together, not just talking and thinking about the break up. If this isn’t enough, you may consider a support group or counseling.

2.Resist the urge to beg. You want them back but not at any price. At the time it may seem the right thing to do but think about it. In the long run they will lose respect for you. This doesn’t mean don’t try to work things out. If there is a chance you can work things out, go for it. However, if your partner has made it clear that in their eyes, the relationship is over, begging will not help and may hurt the situation.

3.Make a change in your life. Find a new way to spend your time. Take a class, join a gym, adopt a pet, or volunteer. Do anything that will make you feel good about yourself. Your ego is probably feeling bruised right now. Find a way to counteract that.

4.Understand your mistakes but also realize that you are not a failure. Don’t beat yourself up. If you made mistakes, then yes, learn from them but dwelling on what might have been won’t help. It takes two to make a relationship, it also takes two to end one. You weren’t the only one who made mistakes. It may not seem useful to you now, but a lot of times the things you learned from this experience will make your next relationship stronger, as long as you make the necessary changes.

5.Start Dating. You won’t feel like it at first, but don’t stay away from other people for an extended period of time. Going out with other people can help the healing process and boast your ego.

6.Don’t fall prey to others. There will be people trying to sell you this or that, guaranteed to win back your partner. Don’t let people take advantage of you while you are vulnerable. If you do buy something, understand that while there is a chance it could help, there is also a chance that it won’t.

7.Take up a hobby. Learn something new. There is probably something you’ve always wanted to try but never had the time. You have the time, do it.

8.Don’t rush into another relationship. While starting to date can help you feel better, it’s not a good idea to rush right into another relationship. Take time to heal before making any commitments or someone will probably end up getting hurt.

9.Avoid dwelling on it. I know it’s impossible not to think about it, but, if you find yourself doing so for an extended period of time, find a way to take your mind off of it. Call a friend; go to the gym, whatever comes to mind. If nothing seems to work, try this: Make a list of reasons why you are better off now. This could include I have time to do the things I want to do. I can date anyone I want to. I can find a partner who will appreciate me the way I am and stop wasting time on a doomed relationship. Think about the things they did that drove you crazy, because there are some. Don’t look back with rose colored glasses and only remember the good things. Don’t have the idea in your head that if only we were back together I would be happy. Wrong. Wouldn’t they have a lot to answer for if you did get back together? Leaving you was probably the biggest mistake they will ever make. Let them dwell on it, you move on!

10.Build your ego. I’ve touched on this already but it is very important. Find ways to feel better about yourself. This could be anything from getting a haircut to buying some new clothes. You could take a class on self improvement. If nothing else, you should do this: Make a list of things that make you a great person. Don’t sit there and tell me you can’t think of anything. I don’t buy it. Try again. Are you kind? Patient? Intelligent? Cook like a pro? Can fix anything? There are things that make you great. WRITE them down and whenever you feel low, read your list and add to it. You are you and you are great so don’t let anyone ever make you feel that you aren’t.

Reflection:
This is going to be a tough phase for me, a hardship which i thought God would never let me undergo again. But He's the Almighty, He knows we've the capability to stand up after this fall; and we will learn and mature from this. I am grateful and appreciative of the beautiful memories shared. Thank God there's no cursing or blaming ending but peace and understanding; God bless you Darling (and this will be response to your 'this will be the last time i call u Darling, take care) i will miss you terribly for this few days, and i hope time will heal our wounds asap. Well, kep in touch, my brother-in-christ~! =)

Q & A session with Reverend 江

2010-07-20T04:43:00.000-07:00

Here are some questions we asked Reverend Jiang last Sunday:

1. How to know if he's the one:
Answer: Chemistry! If one part keeps one emitting the electric, but the other one didn't plug onto to switch, in this case, either no feel or wrong timing, then it's not God's will. For God will give both the magnifying electrical shot if it's a meant-to-be relationship. :)

Reflection: Aha, that answers my question. Of cuz, being in a relationship means more than just the electrical feel. That explains why when we've a crush on someone but he's not; and when he is, we're not. Timing plays such vital role here :) Once both party switches on the switch, then there comes commitment, trust and tolerance. Hm..something which i am still learning and learning :)

2. How to share gospel, especially to non-believers like family and friends?

Answer: Have you portray your christ-like image? Did you help your mom with the dishes? Or is laziness and disobedience outshines your devotion to Christ. Think about it, once you 'turn over a new leaf' and portray the image of a Christian lady, then there's no need to purposely force/share the gospel; for others will see the positive changes in you and come to you. They will be drawn to God and not driven.

Reflection: Gohmenazai dada n mom. I've not been such a good obedient daughter afterall; guess i should be more pro-active and take the iniatiative to do the housework, willingly and .. sometimes, it still daunts me to tell others i'm a christian, i've not baptist nor have i officially accepted christ. In my heart, i do believe in God, Jesus and the holy spirit. But do i portray such good image? not only as a christian, but even as a teacher to be. hm.. same answer, i'm still learning, growing up as the days pass :)

3: If God so loved the world, why does He give such pain and hardship to His people?

Answer: For them to appreciate life more and grow wiser from the lesson.

Reflection: Do i love hardship? NO! i don't, given a choice, would you want to be sick or met with an accident just because you'll be careful on the road? Guess some people just need to learn the hard way. Yes, i agree to a certain extend that if we encounter hardship, we should take it the positive way, see the light in the outcome; there got to be two sides of the coin. For example, i didn't get the internship to Taiwan last holidays, but i get to attend the Life Camp. I strongly believe that 3D2Ns Life Game taught me more than 2-3 months internship.

Daily Reflection:
Early at dinner today, my friend revealed that some of my classmates will add 'Silverin Yiing likes this' at their Facebook comments. Reason? For I'm positive, even their complaints i'll try to give encouragements and motivation. She asked if i'm angry for they say so. Angry over such compliments? No way! :) i admit i am HAPPY (Genuinely happy)when i'm positive. I believe students will enjoy the class if the teacher smiles and gives words of encouragement instead of pulling a long face and give boring lecture. However, those who really know me, will know i;ve my emotional sides too. *wink wink*

Wedding Toast

2010-07-17T01:08:00.000-07:00

oh, my fingers don't wanna stop typing just yet. Since when did the love for blogging reborn? Anyway, there's something that keeps on probing in my mind: Why did Mr Big leave Carrie for Natashia? Carrie is gorgeous, fabulous, and a journalist! but Natashia is 26, young talented and Mr Big feels she's the one. But can Mr Big forget Carrie? I know Carrie still lingers on her past, how can she not? Oh...I shall write my second Special Occasion Speech, entitled "Farewell, my love"

So cliche~ How come i never thought of the idea of farewell to a bf? I've once written a farewell love letter to my ex. (Ps, Andrew, you are not reading this, if you are, just bear in mind it's for coursework purposes. :P) should i? Will the past memories came back haunting me?

Never try never know. Here comes the 10 fingers, doing their magic, i hope.

Ahem...

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Hey, hi, i mean, hello

Can't, i can't. it's a public speaking. the target group is a group of audience!! not just one person, D person who once left a scar on your heart. Thank God it is beautifully patched up now :) Nah, I've no ilham nor desire to revisit the past. Special Occasion, hm..since when breaking up is a special occasion worth celebrate? In a way, it is. Without breakup, we would not meet the right one, who has been there patiently waiting for us. How glad am I to be born a lady. Lolx Yiing, we are in the new millineum, and you are still there thinking guys should make the first move? You bet I am way that traditional! :P

Eliminate 2, skip to 3 - wedding toast. I bet half of my classmates will be doing this topic. Why not? since it is such a joyous occasion! Hm, i wonder why my sis didn't invite me to do her wedding toast? mayb it's not our Chinese culture.

Wine glass and spoon, ready your position, here we go, 3, 2, 1

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Ladies and gentleman, may i have your attention.
Ahem. thank you.

We are all gathered here today to celebrate the joyous occasion of my beloved sister, Chin Ling and her handsome husband, Yew Kim. first Yam Seng, to my new family member! yam Senggggggggggg...

I remembered the first time my sister mentioned bout his existance, it's on a quiet night when i thought sis is asleep as she is the one who usually switches off the light. Out of no where, she popped out this question "Do you ever receive roses? from a guy?"

I was in form 2 that time, and she, Lower Six. Shocked and proudly, i replied 'Yes, the fake paper rose in our cupboard over there. Why?'

'Oh, yeah, but real ones?'

'Erm, ... no, yet.'

'What will you do if you receive a bouquet of roses from a guy?'

'Who is he sis? someone who has a crush on you? what's his name? handsome? your classmate?"

I started to bombared questions to sis, I am so happy for her. for that guy is her first bf, the only one, and old wine tastes better, they got married today, after 9 years of courtship. No breakups, Amen to that, yes to some disagreements.

Sis thought me that no relationships are smooth sailing. There are times when we women have to voice out our opinions. And buying that new house, the house some of you went to this morning, how is it? Lovely? I exceptionally love it! Though it's not some big mansion, but it's from their own money. At the age of 28, both sister and my brother-in-law have saved enough for the downpayment and for this marriage. This is just one part which i admire about my sister and brother-in-law.

From this, I learnt, and wish all who are singles or getting married soon, having goals is important, be it in your life or relationship. Before the food gets cold, I shall end this wedding toast with another 2 yam sengs. Let's thank both side's parents for their marvellous and respected brought up teachings for this married couple. Yam SengGGGGGGGGGGGGGggggggggggggg

Lastly, with a joyous cheer, let's wish this newly weds a life overflowed with true love, devotion and may you two give Lau's family a future generation soon! YAm Sengggggggggggggggggggggg~

Thank you! "

wAh, wait till my sister see this. She's a TESL teacher too, currently transferred out to SMK Bako. she's always been my mentor, see, i took up TESL too, so you can see how much i wanna follow her footsteps. Like our Dr Nordin said, the eldest are most organized and responsible ones. Being the youngest, does it mean, it's really a God given privilege to be manja? Haha..

Peace be with you all =)

P/s we can send draft to Pn Nurliza, right? :)

Draft for Special Occasion Public Speaking 1

2010-07-17T00:45:00.001-07:00

Yes, it's me writing again after the previous blog sent 5 seconds ago. This time i shall be more focus: What topic for my special occasion Public Speaking?

I've thought of a few:
1. Graduation!
2. Farewell.
3. Wedding Toast!

Graduation! yes, from this, you can hv an idea of how much i yearn to finish my studies and go home. Home? Will i be that lucky to be posted back home? I've many friends who wished to be posted away from home. Since God is so good, can you please fulfill our little wishes? Random thought of my graduaton speech:

"Finally, finally it's the BiG Day! The day I, and most of us, yearn for for the past 6 years. Congratulations to all my 45 coursemates and me myself, for succeeding in our 6 years educational studies. Are you all ready for the teaching life in reality? Mind you, there will be no more micro teaching but real life teaching! No more friendly classmates faking as students but real naughty and noisy bunch of adorable students! No more countless edited lesson plans but simple and straight to the principal's office's BOOK. Aha, and not more observation by our lecturers but our students' performance will reflect our teachings. (Have I reached 3 minutes? No?)

Today, i am proud to stand here, receiving this 'pelajar cemerlang' award (angan-angan, ignore me:P). Thanks to IPG KTI and UPM, thanks to all my beloved lecturers, namely Miss Ratha, the most popular and well-respected lecturer, Puan Saleena, though you have left us, but you are one of my role-model and always will be, Miss Loh, the KJ who taught me how to walk and eat and speak like a gentle lady, our new KJ, Puan Nurliza, who gave me a very good first impression as you didn't scold me for being absent for one week, Miss Prema, who is so dedicated and helpful, Miss Nenny, bubbly and easy-going and many more. If time allows, I would like to thank my childhood, primary and secondary teachers who have made a good impact on my life as a teacher. (Time keeper, how much time have i left?)

My fellow friends, there are many teachers in my life whom have really touched my life. I am sure there are countless if not one or two teachers who, too, have leave memorable memories in yours. Let us continue to pray for these teachers who have bring light to the world. Without you, who are we? Without your guidance, will this batch of B.Ed TESL cohort 4 developed into such teacher-like teachers? Ha, take that as positive remark my dear friends. You have changed, we all, have totally changed, from wearing hot pants out shopping to decent long pants and well-covered shoes. That's a joke. Come'on, we are human beings. And for that, i will end my speech with a 'Let's Celebrate!' See you guys at the Euphoria for our graduation party! Yes, Puan Nurliza and readers, you are invited too! 10pm sharp, dress as you like, sway the body as you wish, unleash the 6 yrs entrapment to your max, for tonight's photo will NOT be uploaded to Facebook~! With that, thank you, each and everyone of you, for making my 6 years journey colourful and memorable~ "

Gee, I've written out my speech!! What do you think? Delete the last part? But it's totally what's on my mind when my fingers typed it out..HAHA! One task down, another occasion to go...Farewell or birthday? Hey, this falls under farewell or graduation?Suddenly it seems like..wadever~ Another episode of S&C then i'll think bout it. Peace!